Depression - Teen Support Group
Teen depression is marked by persistent sadness, discouragement, loss of self-worth, and loss of interest in usual activities. Depression can be a temporary response to many situations and stresses. Teens may be more susceptible to depression due to the normal maturation process, the stress associated with it, and conflicts with parents as they become more independent.
My story isnt that dramatic. I just wanted to stop the pain.
I remember watching my dad come home from a long day of work, and sit down with special candy that made him act like a zombie, and a glass filled with cola, and stuff that smelled like nail polish remover.
Percocet. Rum and Coke.
Hed get so mad sometimes throw things, break things. It was hard to picture him without his eyes bulging from their socket, or his brows wound tightly.
My escape was pain. I remember saying that when I grew up, I wanted my husband to beat me. Its crazy how even children can have sadistic fantasies. I started cutting when I was in middle school. First a small cut here and there and then thirty to fifty cuts at a time. It got so bad that I had to use duct tape instead of Band-Aids. I guess I just got so fed up with life that I overdosed. For the first time.
Percocet.
Neurontin.
Oxytocin.
Ultram.
Topamax.
I went into a coma for three days. Unfortunately, I woke up.
Many people say that suicide is a selfish act, but personally, I find it quite heroic.
Listen, Im not encouraging suicide or anything, but to think that one can be in so much pain that they have the strength to end it Just think about it.
I know that when I attempted suicide, I wasnt thinking selfishly. I thought about everyone that it would have affected.
What I think is selfish, are people who tell others that theyre selfish for wanting to end their pain. Why should people be forced to live on this Earth in agony? I have a mental illness that causes me so much pain. People take my diagnosis so lightly because they diagnose every teenage girl whos had a breakup or thats on her period with them. Honestly though, unless you genuinely have it, you wouldnt understand.
Bipolar.
Generalized Anxiety Disorder.
Major Depression.
Have you ever seen a Cymbalta commercial? Depression hurts, Cymbalta can help.
Thats complete bullshit. For me at least.
Ive been on numerous meds, numerous doses, and been through years of therapy. Trust me when I say that I wanted help but nothings helped. Not in the slightest. So why should I have to suffer inside of my mind, talking about repressed feelings with therapists and go down the list of possible medications that could work in four to six weeks.
Now tell me. Whos selfish?
Me, for wanting eternal rest?
Or the person who wants to see me grow up (in pain) so that they can make new memories with me before they kick the bucket themselves?
I remember watching my dad come home from a long day of work, and sit down with special candy that made him act like a zombie, and a glass filled with cola, and stuff that smelled like nail polish remover.
Percocet. Rum and Coke.
Hed get so mad sometimes throw things, break things. It was hard to picture him without his eyes bulging from their socket, or his brows wound tightly.
My escape was pain. I remember saying that when I grew up, I wanted my husband to beat me. Its crazy how even children can have sadistic fantasies. I started cutting when I was in middle school. First a small cut here and there and then thirty to fifty cuts at a time. It got so bad that I had to use duct tape instead of Band-Aids. I guess I just got so fed up with life that I overdosed. For the first time.
Percocet.
Neurontin.
Oxytocin.
Ultram.
Topamax.
I went into a coma for three days. Unfortunately, I woke up.
Many people say that suicide is a selfish act, but personally, I find it quite heroic.
Listen, Im not encouraging suicide or anything, but to think that one can be in so much pain that they have the strength to end it Just think about it.
I know that when I attempted suicide, I wasnt thinking selfishly. I thought about everyone that it would have affected.
What I think is selfish, are people who tell others that theyre selfish for wanting to end their pain. Why should people be forced to live on this Earth in agony? I have a mental illness that causes me so much pain. People take my diagnosis so lightly because they diagnose every teenage girl whos had a breakup or thats on her period with them. Honestly though, unless you genuinely have it, you wouldnt understand.
Bipolar.
Generalized Anxiety Disorder.
Major Depression.
Have you ever seen a Cymbalta commercial? Depression hurts, Cymbalta can help.
Thats complete bullshit. For me at least.
Ive been on numerous meds, numerous doses, and been through years of therapy. Trust me when I say that I wanted help but nothings helped. Not in the slightest. So why should I have to suffer inside of my mind, talking about repressed feelings with therapists and go down the list of possible medications that could work in four to six weeks.
Now tell me. Whos selfish?
Me, for wanting eternal rest?
Or the person who wants to see me grow up (in pain) so that they can make new memories with me before they kick the bucket themselves?
Is it selfish to end your own life? That will always be a controversial topic, and you will never get a definitive answer. The only answer that matters is your own, in the end. You're not going to abide by what any stranger says, your own morals exceed in importance.
I strongly believe that the only cure for you is the will to improve your mental health. Prescriptions will turn into candy if you don't have that will. You must learn to accept the situation and put forth the effort to stop cutting. Sure, you may cut thirty slits. But it isn't fifty. This goes for any number. And remember, you didn't cut fifty. If you did, you didn't cut sixty, etc. You're perspective is the most important piece to this puzzle. If you are unwilling to aid yourself, medicines are only another tool for your destruction.
If cymbalta really does work wouldn't everyone be taking it? I honestly don't like taking meds because it makes me feel even more messed up/suicidal, BUT the only reason I haven't done anything is because of my FAITH, FRIENDS, and....family. My friends actually helped me more than my family because they care.
I care for you and your health.
This is just my opinion you can just ignore it if you want.
I think it's selfish about taking your own life. I've been in your position before with the cutting and wanting to die, but then I stop and think about ALL of the people who want to live and are dying. I BELIEVE that GOD put us on this earth for a reason...like showing others your struggles to show others that they're not alone and to help them...that's just my opinion.