i am 17 years old and today i was in a really bad mood mostly because i think i was just tired but i slept till 12 pm. I was feeling bad for myself for some reason and i dont know why. I have eczema/psoriasis and it really affects my self-esteem, my attitude, pretty much everything. I believe it is the reason why i am the way i am. im never really "happy." i mean i laugh and smile but deep down i think im always sad. i always feel like im being judged and stared at. in the back of my mind i never forget how different i am from most people. i dont tell my feelings to anyone, ever. i dont show emotion at all and everyone tells me that. only my sister, mom, dad, grandma, grandpa, and closest friend know i have this condition. and only my mom, dad, and sister have seen my eczema/psoriasis. i have no medical insurance and i am lucky enough to get cobex and taclonex for free some how but once i stop using it the condition comes back. i try to look on the bright side and see how there are people dying and how i could be worse off, but it never works. i just dont know what to do. i know i need to tell someone but as i said i dont talk about my feelings not for fear that i wont be accepted or anything like that it just makes me feel very awkward. somebody asks me how are you? or whats wrong? and i say good how are you? and nothing is wrong. i always tell myself next time someone asks me that im gonna tell the truth but it never turns out like i plan. however, i think it goes beyond my condition and its just my personality. i dont show emotion and i have low self esteem and im just not a happy person. i really wish i was, but....im not :/