Depression Supporters Support Group
This community is dedicated to spouses, children, relatives, co-workers and others who are actively supporting someone suffering from depression or other serious mental illness. Depression can bring about intense sadness, melancholia or despair that has advanced to the point of being disruptive, which can have a grave impact on the ability of others trying to help.
Oh man... where to begin.
He is touchy, everything is bothering him. I haven't set him off (thank goodness!!) But, he is definitely touchy! Yesterday he was cut off three times while we were driving. Totally annoying, I know. But, we had to pull over so he could calm down and breathe. He had a complete panic attack. He couldn't deal with it at all- this morning he wanted to go out too and again was cut off twice. He pulled over and turned around and we came home.
He has been bored lately... he won't say it but he is. He wants to do something but doesn't know what to do. He wants to do something he would do in his hometown- he would drive through the mountains, or he would go to a museum, or go see some friends. He does not want to drive around here, he doesn't want friends here, he doesn't want to do anything. So... when he is like this and wanting to go somewhere and do something he freaks out that he is not in his hometown to do what he wants to do. So... we were going to walk around Walmart, or drive through the town, or whatever but he gets so angry with everything! I think because he is already angry that he is here.
So, we were talking when we got home and he says again "I can't stay here anymore, I need to leave this place." I get that... he's been saying this for a long time but he is definitely MEANING it more than before now. So... where do we go? I have NO idea! I am looking for work but he only wants to live in a couple places and my job WILL NOT support us there, if I even got a job. He would HAVE to bring in a good amount of money. The one that we've looked at most, they are hiring. If I got the job I could afford the mortgage and the phone bill. Thats it! We could not heat or cool the place, no water, no tv, no internet (which is my lifesaver now with this site!! We didn't have it until October and thats when I found you guys and I will never lose you now!) Oh yeah... FOOD! And he gets SO mad when I try to talk to him about this all... it is as if I am sabotaging his happiness by not making enough money there to support us. And whats he going to do there? If he works FULL time, we'd still not make it there like we do here. But we could make it we'd just have to cut back severely. So... like I said a few nights ago his plan was to move onto the sidewalk of the town that makes him happy and die there.... I fear he might actually try something like this. I am starting to fear for us and what he is willing to do for us to be together. He won't work, he won't look for work, he won't go to school. What am I suppose to do?
I am not freaking out YET... but I just feel like he wants me to do the impossible and it is making every part of my body cringe with fury and hopelessness!
ugh
He is touchy, everything is bothering him. I haven't set him off (thank goodness!!) But, he is definitely touchy! Yesterday he was cut off three times while we were driving. Totally annoying, I know. But, we had to pull over so he could calm down and breathe. He had a complete panic attack. He couldn't deal with it at all- this morning he wanted to go out too and again was cut off twice. He pulled over and turned around and we came home.
He has been bored lately... he won't say it but he is. He wants to do something but doesn't know what to do. He wants to do something he would do in his hometown- he would drive through the mountains, or he would go to a museum, or go see some friends. He does not want to drive around here, he doesn't want friends here, he doesn't want to do anything. So... when he is like this and wanting to go somewhere and do something he freaks out that he is not in his hometown to do what he wants to do. So... we were going to walk around Walmart, or drive through the town, or whatever but he gets so angry with everything! I think because he is already angry that he is here.
So, we were talking when we got home and he says again "I can't stay here anymore, I need to leave this place." I get that... he's been saying this for a long time but he is definitely MEANING it more than before now. So... where do we go? I have NO idea! I am looking for work but he only wants to live in a couple places and my job WILL NOT support us there, if I even got a job. He would HAVE to bring in a good amount of money. The one that we've looked at most, they are hiring. If I got the job I could afford the mortgage and the phone bill. Thats it! We could not heat or cool the place, no water, no tv, no internet (which is my lifesaver now with this site!! We didn't have it until October and thats when I found you guys and I will never lose you now!) Oh yeah... FOOD! And he gets SO mad when I try to talk to him about this all... it is as if I am sabotaging his happiness by not making enough money there to support us. And whats he going to do there? If he works FULL time, we'd still not make it there like we do here. But we could make it we'd just have to cut back severely. So... like I said a few nights ago his plan was to move onto the sidewalk of the town that makes him happy and die there.... I fear he might actually try something like this. I am starting to fear for us and what he is willing to do for us to be together. He won't work, he won't look for work, he won't go to school. What am I suppose to do?
I am not freaking out YET... but I just feel like he wants me to do the impossible and it is making every part of my body cringe with fury and hopelessness!
ugh
I have to push it on him more... I have to get him to do the work.
I am just drained- however I must say it is very comforting to hear that I'm not the only one who deals with someone wanting to move away from their problems. He is certain life will be better if we move to this small town. I am certain that even if that's the case but we have no money to eat and we starve... That's going to throw both of us into a downer place.
But it's nice to have support and know I'm not alone :)
Thankyou