I need my support team on this website today...These past couple of days has been a roller coaster with my BF. He has been doing so good the past couple months I almost forgot what it feels like to see him so depressed which makes me feel completely helpless because there is nothing I can do. He told me he hates that he can't control his emotions lately. He's in the really intense part of his engineering degree and can't concentrate on his homework because his emotions play into his motivation to do it. Learning and memory are right by the emotional part of the brain. So if you are feeling horrible and unmotivated to do anything, it is really hard to learn. The only thing that makes him feel better is taking the stressful stuff away/being done with the stressful stuff. However, we have 2 more months of this semester. So that's two more months of stress. The more stressed out he is, the more depressed, the less he learns, the more stress there is in the future when he needs to recall all the stuff from the past....it's a nasty cycle.

I'm trying really hard to keep sane during all of this, but its hard!! My emotions seem to be completely influenced by his. I keep trying to not let this happen but I feel like I'm loosing the ability to.

We had a great day yesterday. He ran 3 miles in the morning (which he hasn't done in a really long time so that was huge!). We went to the park (it was the first nice day out of the year!), played catch, and read our books outside. It was great! Such a relaxing day. Then today...it's raining and cold, my BF is in a horrible mood, etc. Some days his depression just completely engulfs him. When I look at him, I don't even see the person I know and love. It's like he's just completely drowning in the sadness and stress. I keep trying to stay strong for him but when I get time to myself I just completely decompress and am unmotivated to do any of the stuff I need to do. When is this going to end???!!! Ugh.