So I'm back from our holiday festivities... I am off work all week.... We had planned to spend the week together. No extra plans, no schedules, no work. Just us being together. So far that's exactly what we have done.... Us together. He sits here cursing at everything and staring off into space, and ignoring me. I sit here heartbroken that this relaxing week of our time is nearly over and has not gone as planned. I confronted him about it tonight.... Now he's angry and sad that I mentioned this. Heis apologizing and I didn't want that. I simply asked what could I do? It's hard to believe that he even likes me at times like this. He seems to like everyone he talks to on the phone... Everyone he talks about. With me, nothing no emotion, he is stoic.
My heart is crumbling! I posted earlier that December was surprisingly good, we were gone on our trip and he was good. We drove home last Thursday and things were great still until about 4 blocks from home. He blew up. He dropped me off an drove off. I chased the car down the street. Someone stopped him and told him I was chasing him. He came back angry and upset... Then he consoled me. He hugged me and apologized saying he will always love me and he is so sorry. Since then he has been in a terrible funk. It's so hard to sit here and deal with. When I'm working at least I have human interaction during the day and come home to silence. Now I'm sitting here for 8 days straight with a miserable man. I have no plans because we decided to enjoy each others company and not put any other plans in our schedule for the week. So here I sit. He is angry that I am going through this. I am so heartbroken that we are in this situation.
I just need to say it in the most harsh way to get it off my chest but I wish he would stop complaining and live life. Get over it... I love him and I don't want our life haulted anymore :(