Recently i have been managing a lot better. It seems so strange when i was younger i had no problems being in the spotlight, i loved it, sought it out. After i hit my teens it all seemed to go to hell and all i wanted to do was hide, from myself, from family, friends, the world. i used to take dance classes for 10 years and would perfom on stage, and by the time i was 11 i was in a special school for drama. i loved acting, i truley loved being on stage having the leading role in front of hundreds of people. i have trouble going to public places now. but a couple days ago i signed up for a modeling/fashion competition, when the called me in for it i was excited cause lately i have really been missing that part of my life. So i went and i had fun yes i had a few moments where i wasn't doing good my mind went blank when needed to recite a line, they even passed me to the next round, and while i unfortunately got sick after, i caught some bug that hit me hard and fast. i really really enjoyed my self and i pushed past my fear, i know now i can do it. i did miss the next round but just that one experience showed me that with a bit of practice i can do it again, and i will!!