I am 34 years old and I was diagnosed September 25th of this year with Vascular Dementia. I've been married for a year and a half. My wonderful caring husband got one day of peace and then I noticed a change. I noticed right away that something was different with me. I started dropping things and falling and getting dizzy and not being able to control my anger and my emotions and memory.
I am trying to stay positive but my husband cries in the mornings.. I hear him in the living room .. he thinks I am asleep, but I hear him. I can't get too sad because that just gives me a migraine which sets off the mini strokes which makes the dementia worse. He gets so frustrated with me when I am not "myself" which I don't know who that is anymore. He says to me "oh that's vaski again." That's her name. Vaski. And that hurts so much.. I hate Vaski... I hate her...
I don't know what to do. Anytime I have a feeling that means it's the dementia talking. How can I make him understand that I have feelings like anyone else? He tells me to stop my medication because he doesn't want me to suffer anymore which makes sense in some aspects right? What should I do.. does anyone know? Can anyone help me? I know he loves me but how can I help him when I am so sick myself?
Yesterday I had the luxury of a lot of time to read posts on here.........for the first time in my life I didn't feel like I was a weirdo......when I introduced myself I told you about what my dd's biological father had been doing to her, that's the worst because it's not me taking the pain....it's my kid....but my previous experiences have been signifcant as well......there isn't much that...
Can't seem to go to sleep right now so I'm up listening to music and posting this. Anybody else up want to message me I'm bored.