I am 34 years old and I was diagnosed September 25th of this year with Vascular Dementia. I've been married for a year and a half. My wonderful caring husband got one day of peace and then I noticed a change. I noticed right away that something was different with me. I started dropping things and falling and getting dizzy and not being able to control my anger and my emotions and memory.
I am trying to stay positive but my husband cries in the mornings.. I hear him in the living room .. he thinks I am asleep, but I hear him. I can't get too sad because that just gives me a migraine which sets off the mini strokes which makes the dementia worse. He gets so frustrated with me when I am not "myself" which I don't know who that is anymore. He says to me "oh that's vaski again." That's her name. Vaski. And that hurts so much.. I hate Vaski... I hate her...
I don't know what to do. Anytime I have a feeling that means it's the dementia talking. How can I make him understand that I have feelings like anyone else? He tells me to stop my medication because he doesn't want me to suffer anymore which makes sense in some aspects right? What should I do.. does anyone know? Can anyone help me? I know he loves me but how can I help him when I am so sick myself?
I am really peeved right now..... Deep breaths...... What do you do if you're feeling really angry or frustrated in order to help yourself calm down..... Especially when things are completely out of your control????I would really appreciate some insite on this...... big hugs.....xo
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