I am 34 years old and I was diagnosed September 25th of this year with Vascular Dementia. I've been married for a year and a half. My wonderful caring husband got one day of peace and then I noticed a change. I noticed right away that something was different with me. I started dropping things and falling and getting dizzy and not being able to control my anger and my emotions and memory.
I am trying to stay positive but my husband cries in the mornings.. I hear him in the living room .. he thinks I am asleep, but I hear him. I can't get too sad because that just gives me a migraine which sets off the mini strokes which makes the dementia worse. He gets so frustrated with me when I am not "myself" which I don't know who that is anymore. He says to me "oh that's vaski again." That's her name. Vaski. And that hurts so much.. I hate Vaski... I hate her...
I don't know what to do. Anytime I have a feeling that means it's the dementia talking. How can I make him understand that I have feelings like anyone else? He tells me to stop my medication because he doesn't want me to suffer anymore which makes sense in some aspects right? What should I do.. does anyone know? Can anyone help me? I know he loves me but how can I help him when I am so sick myself?
my something is this:i bought a bed frame for a bigger bed for my new room. I also bought the bedspread and sheets. I still need to buy a mattress but I don’t have money to buy everything at once. I’m in no particular rush. I’m happy to buy things as I can afford them. It’s kinda nice. Your turn !!
I’m lonely and anxious and irritable and have no appetite. Thankfully my therapist is back tomorrow and I have an appointment with her. I may want to see her on Thursday too. I’m falling apart on the inside and nobody knows. I’m doing what I have to do. Really I just want to lay in bed all day and sleep. But I visited my sister for an hour and we chatted over coffee. I shoveled my driveway....