Well I am new to this but I feel I have no one who understands me they just feel sorry for me so I put a smile on and pretend I am ok and good but I am tore apart I feel so broken my husband of 7 years passed away 12/01/2017 it was a cold night I was at Wal-Mart on my way to decorate for a woman lunch at our church after I left Wal-Mart I was suppose to drop my 3 yr old daughter off with him well I got a call from his brother as I was checking out I felt my heart drop when he said there was a bad car accident I didn't know what to do I prayed the whole way to the accident I knew in my heart he was gone when I pulled up there was a sheet on the car and all the family on the side of the road I lost the love of my life and I went into strong mode for my kids I had a hard time with one of his sisters and God ended up giving me all my heart desires and we got to bury him the was we wanted so I felt I had to fight for myself and my kids rights then put this strong look for myself because I knew my mom my family my kids all where worried now these months later I am falling apart I still cry every day when I am alone I watch my 3yr old do things and I cry because I never thought he wouldn't be here with us to help raise her she starts school soon and how will I do this alone with out him I sit here and think what went wrong and why is he not here I blame my self I think of dumb fights I don't know if all this emotions r normal or if I am flossing my mind