Cutters Have Feelings Too Community Group
Im tired of people classifying people that cut as emo or attentionseekers! Heres a group that we can all be friends and help each other achieve our goals!
Here is my story. It is hard for me to talk about because so many people tell me I am stupid for doing this and I should just snap out of it and my reasons are not worth it. Well to me it IS worth it. See, for me, it is not about making myself feel pain. When I cut, I do not feel anything while I am doing it. It is like I step outside my body and watch what is happening or something. This is dangerous I know, because often times I do not know exactly how deep I am getting, but it is just how it happens for me. When I cut there are different reasons. I only do it when I get to the point where I can not take any more things going wrong. I am surprised that I haven't lately with everything going on right now. Anyway, I hold back how I feel until it is too much, and when it becomes too much that is when I cut. It is a vicious cycle with me, as when I realize what I did, I feel guilty about it and it makes me want to do it again almost as "punishment" or however you want to say it, for cutting in the first place. The only time I start feeling pain is after I am all done. I try so hard not to cut I really do. But sometimes it is too hard to fight. I get sick of the people who are supposed to be my supporters either telling me I am stupid or that it is not worth it, or yelling at me. Especially when they go and ###### do it right after telling me its dumb! It ticks me off when they do that. Well that is my story.
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i understand what you said by it is a punishment. that is why i cut too. you realy need to talk to someone though; weather a counsulor, a therapist, friend, family member. whoever. everyone needs to confide in other people and let their feelings out. im sorry that other people yell at you but i hope you know that they only do it because they love you and hate that you are hurting yourself. if my friend was cutting i would yell at her too because it would hurt me. honestly, cutting yourself hurts your loved ones more than it hurts you becasue they probably love you more that you love you self. i completely understand why you cut but you need to understand that you loved one dont want you too and you cant do it forever.
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Hi! My name is Hopeful82575. I have been a cutter for 14 years now. Mu mom and dad always said "Why do you do this?" or "What have I done to make you feel this way?" I always told them that it was nothing that they did, and I can't explain why I feel this way. TRUST ME YOU ARE NOT STUPID! I used to feel the same way, until I took the step to move out on my own. I finally found a couple that understood what I was going through and I moved in with them. I have found it to be easier to talk to a stranger than someone I know. There are people out there that can help you get through the tough moments without cutting. It has been 3 years for me now.
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your not stupid. we all have our reasons. just understand that people who don't cut aren't going to understand you...
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yeah i can understand you. and it sounds like you are dissociating when you cut. like you're out of your body and another part takes over. you might have a dissociation disorder. it usually forms because of trauma. Maybe you should see a doctor or a therapist because dissociation can gradually become worse. It might start happening at random for no reason without you even knowing. It can be scary. I have some issues with it from my PTSD. I'm not saying you have it or anything but its just something to look into. Take care hun.:)
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