Compulsive lying Community Group
For individuals who lie because they cannot reveal their true selves to other people in their lives at the risk of being disliked. Are you a victim of this type of abuse??
I'm constantly lying. Big or small it doesn't matter, but it led to infidelity. She was kind enough to give me another chance but I didn't tell her everything and it surfaced again.
I'm disgusted with myself and have considered Suicide today because I don't have a grasp on anything real due to my actions. It feels like one bad apple would be gone if I did. Suicide hotline brought me to NAMI which brings me here.
I definitely understand lying bringing you to the thought of suicide. I was there after she left. I laid there thinking no one would care if I was gone cause I had already ruined so much. I laid there for two weeks....
Then I made a change, I found counseling. You have to get up and make a step.
It sounds dumb but write in a journal and ask yourself why do I lie? When did I start lying? What am I hiding? Who have I lied to?
Once you get past that bust open your life...reach out to people you have lied to and tell them I am a liar and I have lied to you about this and that.
It is not easy, but you have to accept your problem and take it head on. Once you get it out you are a liar you can’t go back cause everyone will know and that helps more than you think it would.
I also reached out to my sister, opening up about things I hadn’t done so before, and told her about my lying.
She commended me for opening up about some scary truths. I’m working on an apology letter for my fiancée.
Have you ever felt yourself at a loss at where to start? I’ve told so many lies that at times I’m not sure where to begin,
I feel like the best step is trying to truthfully define who I am, so I can move forward unashamed. I’ve also cut out social media completely as of today because I recognize it as a trigger to “perform” as it were.
I guess the benefit to COVID-19 is that I have the time to do so.
Thanks again.