Have not posted lately.There has been alot going on.First my aunt passed away who I dearly love and was very close to.Then yesterday my dear friend died after being termianlly ill with breast cancer.When I found out my friend Clara only had days to live I asked my partner to come home from her visit with her mom and sister.This did not go well at all.My partners mom went off on her and told her to leave her house and not to even call her to let her mom know she had gotten home safely.So much stress and sorrow.Have had a very hard time coping with everything.I have gotten to the point I do not want to think or feel anymore.I am so hurt over losing my aunt and my close friend Clara.And then my partners mom goes and pulls this crap cause I wanted my partner with me while my friend wa dieing.My partner did leve her mom's home in tears and is really having a hard time coping as well.I really needed my partner for support and my partners mom could of cared a less.My friend Clara was like a second mom to me and she went down really fast with her breast cancer.She is also my nephews grandmother.And they have been through so much in the last six years.They loss their father to suicide and then their grandfather to a heart attack and a great uncle to suicide and now their grandmother to breast cancer.I am trying to be strong and supportive for them and Clara's family.And right now I just feel so weak.And want to take away the pain my partner is going through but know I am not able to.Just wanted to let everyone know why I have been so silent.So much to deal with. And right now not sure how to.