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Lightning is not far behind. I find myself trying to be aware of my lightning codependance, currently recovering from a friend relationship here on ds.
Nearly 3 weeks of no contact I was contacted indirectly last night by a third party also involved asking for help. The main Lightning person with electrical charges triggering my codependance has Huge Multi illnesses and will die in the not to distant future.
How does one say no to a person reaching out for help when dying?
I did my best to make the third party aware I was one step away from the psyward and I'm still trying to recover. I;m typing now with some anger because J (dying person) thinks I'm well!!
The end result was to make a boundary of yes I'll communicate but not like before. I was attached to my computer. By the end of the journey I was spending days in bed eatting pbj and no self care at all.
I am stronger now, and I know my codependance triggers 'will be tested'. Currently J is in the hospital after surgery she got a brain bleed and now has had a stroke on top of all the other life threatning diseases.
Continuing The 3 C's! This will be my montra anytime I'm contacted. I responded once last night. No message yet today. Praying Hard for The Greatest Good For All Concerned!
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Ever since I stopped doing therapy because of insurance, I've been feeling that old tense and irritable sense of anxiety and stress. I hate that. I was making so many strides and changes during therapy, my therapist would acknowledge all of my progress and accomplishments, and I miss that reassurance. Today I thought about it, and I made those changes! She would always tell me that I chose to...
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It's been some time since my last post...sorry. I've been going through a challenging time with the sale of my home, purchase of a condo and my adult asperger son that lives with me. I've had days where I couldn't get out of bed, days where I stayed in my pj's and days where all I managed to do was eat, drink fluids and take care of my Sweet Mia kitty. Sweet Mia came to me from a shelter about...
I have found that when I just don't have the energy and take a step back, there are other people that will step-up. Take care of yourself and give only what you can.
never have felt this way before...when I write about numbing...it's a way to escape the boredom, procrastination by using the computer as my choice of addiction.
I am awake, yet sleep through my day of nothingness if that makes sense? Is this denial, grieving the loss of Laura and my sister? Unfinished .... I just don't know anymore where to take my next step, so for 'safe' I sit and don't 'do anything'...