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Working on recovery
Lightning is not far behind. I find myself trying to be aware of my lightning codependance, currently recovering from a friend relationship here on ds.
Nearly 3 weeks of no contact I was contacted indirectly last night by a third party also involved asking for help. The main Lightning person with electrical charges triggering my codependance has Huge Multi illnesses and will die in the not to distant future.
How does one say no to a person reaching out for help when dying?
I did my best to make the third party aware I was one step away from the psyward and I'm still trying to recover. I;m typing now with some anger because J (dying person) thinks I'm well!!
The end result was to make a boundary of yes I'll communicate but not like before. I was attached to my computer. By the end of the journey I was spending days in bed eatting pbj and no self care at all.
I am stronger now, and I know my codependance triggers 'will be tested'. Currently J is in the hospital after surgery she got a brain bleed and now has had a stroke on top of all the other life threatning diseases.
Continuing The 3 C's! This will be my montra anytime I'm contacted. I responded once last night. No message yet today. Praying Hard for The Greatest Good For All Concerned!
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I've been on high dose prednisone for pneumonia, and now I am slowly weaning. But lots of symptoms I don't like having, plus overeating has put at least 10 lbs on me. The food is "loud" as the GLP-1 users refer to it.Also pressured speech. Which comes out in my posts. Sorry I posted so much. I just need an outlet for my agitated and irritable brain. Just scroll on by my posts, if they are too...
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Has anyone heard from Jenn, she had an adult son with aspergers, Eric, they lived a long time with her grandmother, then they moved into an apartment. She had a funny little picture if I recall of a short dark haird woman as part of her name in a red dress.There are so many people who have dropped away from this room...I wonder where they are, and miss them. Wishing that DS could become what it...
I have found that when I just don't have the energy and take a step back, there are other people that will step-up. Take care of yourself and give only what you can.
never have felt this way before...when I write about numbing...it's a way to escape the boredom, procrastination by using the computer as my choice of addiction.
I am awake, yet sleep through my day of nothingness if that makes sense? Is this denial, grieving the loss of Laura and my sister? Unfinished .... I just don't know anymore where to take my next step, so for 'safe' I sit and don't 'do anything'...