Your feelings are valid. Let it go. Breathe. It's okay to be upset but don't let it rule you. Hang in there. This is not the end of the story. God has a plan, day by day...hour by hour if necessary.

I completely agree with you. I know the enemy is stirring in my emotions and marriage. He is the father of lies! Thank you for the encouragement. I get so overwhelmed! It doesn't help that I'm bipolar and with no meds in the grind of waiting for my insurance to approve a new psychiatrist. Today was a better day, went to church had couples group with our pastor that went very well. I am thankful for my church family! I am thankful for my husband being sober... But man is his recovery process takig a toll on me. Because it is as if goig through the motions for his recovery all the hurt and healing proces s for the damaged caused by his addictions are just lingering until he completes is IOP program and we will go get couples counseling. I am meeting with his counselor through his program one on one this coming Friday to build a foundation for him to start counseling us soon. I am very nervous because I don't know if my husband has been 100% honest with him.. And I will be honest and it makes me fear my husband reacting if anything is brought up that he may have not been honest about. Maybe I am just narrowing trouble. My husband asked me to go see his counselor my husband wants me to get help and to go to marriage counseling with him. It is just uncharted waters... Never had counseling before... That's probably why I am apprehensive in my thinking. It will be good. God does gave a plan! I can hold tight to His promises! You and I both can! I commented in your response on your journal also.

Praying for you, your husband and your family! Thank you for your kind words on my post!

Your 'About Me' narrative hit really close to home... I would love to chat sometime! I could offer alot of perspective from a personal point of view, as well as, a wife.

My faith in God, my husband's amazing family and therapy are helping me believe that no matter what lies ahead I can face, conquer and overcome. Don't let me lie here... I am terrified to be without my husband BUT as I have been nicely reminded, whatever the future holds, with God in my life, he will make sure to bring me through! The same is true for you!

Much love