so today is starting out bad- friggin dizziness returning, nausea, puking, migraine coming on... Matt is off today and has yet to call me- i'm afraid to call him cause i fear he will say something mean that i don't want to hear- he has been distance and standoffish the last 2 days... and that worries me.... really does.... maybe i am over analyzing- as i tend to do that a lot- always have... my friends have already started calling and teasing- saying- ur the big "P" word and thats why ur so sick.... lord help me i wanted to find this out today- but promised the idiot i'd wait til we were together .....he says he is coming next weekend but i'm sure something will come up and change his mind and i'll have to do this on my own- and now there is all this drama in the depression community... people lying, fighting and leaving- feels like i'm at my family reunion and losing some of my extended emotional family- does that even make sense?anyways..... just had to vent today.... peace everyone......
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