Codependency Support Group

Codependency is defined as someone who exhibits too much, and often inappropriate, caring for another person's struggles. A codependent person may try to change, or feel shame about their most private thoughts and feelings if they conflict with the other person's struggles. If you are on a journey towards self-love, this support group is for you. Join us and find others...

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My own worst enemy.

Jess8611
Jess8611

don't think there's hope left anywhere for me.




I have a lot of ongoing mental health problems, and with that I have been self medicating myself to help, ease my battle with my own mind. But now it's became a problem. I'm codependent on this drug, I'm now using stronger drugs just to feel different. Just to feel normal. I have became what I have always told myself I would NOT become - a drug addict. 




Whenever I don't have anything to take the edge, pain away. I am so emotional. I can't handle myself, I can't handle my thoughts! I am my own worse enemy. I need help and there seems to be NOWHERE to turn! 



It didn't use to affect my personal life, it is now affecting my relationship and my kids. My relationship has went straight down the drain, we have fought more now than ever. He is super supportive. But has no idea what I'm going thru. I need help, before I go insane and end up blacking out. 



 
FindingMeAgain
FindingMeAgain
You are not alone, Jess8611. I hear how much pain you are in. You've already done the hardest step - admitting you need help. There are several choices you can make now to help yourself. You deserve to be happy. 1) Google for local help centers or therapist. There is nothing wrong with asking for help. A therapist is there to teach you the skills you need to help you cope. We all need to learn the skills we missed learning in our past. It was the best decision I've ever made. 2) Admit to yourself and a higher power that you need help. Pray for guidance and then sit quietly and listen. You will hear the answer if you are patient and listen. 3) It sounds like you feel a lot of emotions - too many sometimes. To help with feeling emotions, seek a therapist, read up on meditating to help process emotions, or - my personal favorite - meditate with a YouTube video. My favorite is this one: Honest Guys - Guided Meditation for Letting Go. I have found that it really helps me when I feel overwhelmed with emotion. I hope this helps. Try not to beat yourself up; we all have fallen in our lives. Just take one small step at a time.
mirandac
mirandac
Do you need to go to support group such as
NA first? Many people use drugs to cope and
cover up Other disorders.

In alanon there are many double winners (both
Programs) they Usually stay with their primary
program until they are healed. HUGS