Wow so stressed out sister problems. Lisa sick and Becky the marter. Crying and letting ever know that she is Lisa is dying and acting like asshole last night at her birthday dinner. Not talking to anyone and texting on the phone. Becky says she was at the hospital on her birthday and Lisa ( the sick sister) had not even said happy birthday. Trying to make me feel guilty and look at all I do and you dont do. In Cancun (recent trip) she (Becky) made a big deal about the girls say things about Janets ( our friend) wearing panty hose. Told Jane (another girl on the trip) about it and said that she never makes fun or tried to hurt any ones feelings. Yeah right. She is making this about her. Talking constantly about it and what she does. Never a bit of help of help with Kenny my son when he was sick. What I need to do is stay away from her for my own sanity. She is a narcissistic bitch who is rude to others and always right and intolerant of anyone that disagrees with her. I let her have way to much power over me cause she is the one that makes me look bad to others and punishes me with excluding me from things that they do.
Bad evaluation at work about things that I dont do like the being on the computer or doing personal things or call and not seeing patients fast cause of that. I am not representing my hospital cause of my attitude. Bout to flip out. These patients are rude and someone at work is really being a rat and saying really bad things about me. Very pissed off and just have to shut up and do my job and keep trying to find another one. Flipping out I dont do these things and just sick of being accused of things that I am not doing. How dare her (my boss) and whoever is saying untrue things about me. !!!!!!!!!!!!! Have to let it go but so hard to do. Feel like I look bad to my coworkers and management. And really I am not perfect but they are really lying about me. Then ends with management shit about how she hopes and still thinks that I can be a positive addition to this place in the future. She has ignored all of our problems and knee jerk reactions to the situation at work. She has twisted and turned so much crap around to make me look bad. Guess she won and should just be humble I guess and eat all this shit.
Come home tonight after work and SO is pounting and not speaking and evasive. I have not even asked why cause I cant get into another conflict. Trying to not let him ruin my evening and dread the morning before getting ready for my suck ass job. No eye contact and know he is ready to tie into me at any minute.
Why am I allowing myself to be surrounded by so much negative crap? I deserve to be happy and not have a pounding headache and almost shakking inside.