I have to keep this short and go to sleep, I'm feeling on the edge of a codependent meltdown. I've been doind really well for myself the past several months. As a sympotom of codependence I was homeless for a long time and the past few years I have been working my way up the self care ladder. The past several months I have been doing really well. It's the doing well that is almost the scariest, because retrospectively I can see where I have been, where I could be. I get scared of going back. I get terrified that I'm dying of codependence sometimes. Most of the time I hate myself for being codependent, for being disloyal to myself, for putting the needs and wants of others before myself. But the past several months I have been doing really well. I've been learning about boundaries, I've been listening to a lot of audio books (Melody Beattie's The New Codependence currently, it's very insightful), I'm working on a routine, eating regular meals, doing regular laundry, working jobs I love, playing roller derby, working on starting a business, going to school. Really good self care stuff. I'm proud of me and feel like I am making great progress.
But, my boyfriend and I broke up recently. Honestly, in terms of breakups it was really good, really smooth. I still have parts of hurt I need to work through. But i'm ok with; which i'm also proud of myself for because it is progress for me.
I'm scared of being alone though. I don't know how. I have a relationship option with an ex that I really don't want and I'm worried that I'll end up in it just not to be alone. I'm worried I'll be unhappy being alone. I'm worried that I can't be single. Because truth be told, I never have been, but I know that right now I want to be single. It's just, the fear of being alone has always one and I want to do things differently. I want to live for myself for a while, for I am whole as I am. I know this, but I want to feel it. I want to carry this knowledge with me wherever I go. I'm just not quite sure how.
Hope y’all are all having a wonderful day. To begin, I joined this Group because none of my friends or family understand and it’s killing me. I am 23, I have had fibromyalgia for about 8 years or so. It’s been really severe the past 5 years. I just found out 2 weeks ago I have FM. There’s no cure for it and the muscular pain is at a level 8-10 every second of every day. I’ve done all...
I have to work again tonight. I'm worried about how I'm going to function. For some reason I just can't focus on only working. I can't fully pay attention. I get triggered so easily. I'm also really sensitive to things. It's hard to keep it together.How do you guys function at work when things are really bad?