tonight just pissed off at everything and everyone. felt so good for few days on top of the world and felt good about myself. then back to my job that i cant stand and a then home to find him sick again!! i am on the computer and he says yeah we need to start bowling ( after i told him so girls want me to bowl with them on thrusdays) he says would be better than you being on that fucking computer all the time. then after i have been working alot and tired - says the remote is closer to you but dont want to put u out to change the channe!!!. what the fuck change yourself but i say nothing to avoid conflict. how dare him. he has been relaxing all day. i can tell i have not been reading or working the program. just really hate him right now. the computer is my lifeline and helps me stay sane.
my job is just getting much worse thought it would get better. we cant take a day off anymore unless it is ok with my boss and the "best for the unit" my other lifeline is seeing my grandchildern and schedule is gettin worse as this is getting harder with the recent developments concerning the schedule. i have been accused by my boss of not getting patients seen cause i am doing personal things, we are just not fast enough, no lunch break til we are there for 4 hours ( start at 11 am). not suppost to take a break till 3 pm, everything that i say she argues with me and wants to make me feel selfish and not seeing the big pic. the big pic is this job sucks and i feel trapped by it and him. guidelines for scheduling are just over the top and dont work out if you want a life. know that i am lukcy to have a good paying job but just sick of my bosses knee jerk reactions and negative attitude towards me and being accused of things that i am not doing. at least i can say that i am seeing the work situation as just really sucky and not feeling like i am doing anything wrong. i work my ass off and get nothing but negative comments and no acknowledgement of how hard i work.