I havent posted on my situation as it is embarrasing.... I meet a Man who was honeest about his "recovery" he was in a military recovery we dated for nearly a year, took hi to met my father Ect. Every one held nothing not even the felony charges aginst him..... long story short I find out that he is gsmming me for ehat ever little thing he can get I have found that after standing by him after 3 fall backs and even womanizing I stepped back from a relationship to friendship.... well he used me for a place to stay.. now I was carefull not to give keys ect.... After finally talking to WHo WAS his sponcer I learn he stopped being his sponcer last year.. so who this "sponcer he was talking to" Yes it was a female and a crack dealer.... this is strike four and I cant be a freind the last sponcer tolk me the last lady lost her car , his car and another friends car to the dope man..bank cards ect everything........guess im lucky...tomarrow ALL his stuff goes to goodwill all his leagal docs.....Ill be kind and burn them ... but the big bible and all the 12 step stuff Ill take it to the lst NA AA meeting place I had been taking hm to...... Its so sad when such a beautiful kind heart can change to such a uncaring beast ovr some drug he knows is killing him.... I hope he ends sup back in Jail that way he will be clean and alive and hopefully clear things with his God..... Me.... Got to rid myself of his number photos and start taking care of me better I have a HUGE surgery comming after all..... it hurts but no one needs this life I wish there was a CoDA meeting near by seems there is only one a month I am on emotional roller coster and find it silly when I know I do not want this in my life its just so sad to loos a human to this death and destruction get this he is soon 54 YEah hu should know better well thats my morning vent