Codependency Support Group
Codependency is defined as someone who exhibits too much, and often inappropriate, caring for another person's struggles. A codependent person may try to change, or feel shame about their most private thoughts and feelings if they conflict with the other person's struggles. If you are on a journey towards self-love, this support group is for you. Join us and find others...
i have become a resentful, irritable, frustrated, disillusioned person. very critical of myself and others. i stay in situations that are not healthy for me in misery. i am so disappointed in my life and my attitude scares me sometimes. feel like my old self just crawled away and gave up. my interpersonal relations are crap. i have not been reaching out for a better life, just staying where i am unhappy and feeling panic at times. disappointed with myself and almost everyone that i know. i feel like a prisoner that i have inprisoned. i work to much and run to much and am not finding joy in my life very often. still with SO that i cant hardly stand. he is petty, lazy, and drinks to much. when my family was here he cornered my son and said that i was an asshole to him and that i should pay the 500 dollars for his reinstatement fee to get his liscense back ( that he lost to a DUI. because he helped me before. bitching about now having his tv to himself when others were here and having to do dishes. told my son that if i want him to leave will have to buy him out. i think he like rubbing in that he has no liscense and is making no attempt to save money to get it. it is a hardship for me as its hard for me as i cant do many things he could with a lisence. he undermines me to all and is trying to harm me and has for years through talking bad about me to friends and family. and he has done it. he wanted to move a tv in his room and i guess just stay there when all here. a friend at work said- he wont be together with your family. i though how disfunctional that was. i dont let him stress me out about my company coming as i used to. i said this is my house also. cant make myself get out and make new friends. just come home to an unhappy home. i avoid him at all cost and we have absolutely no relationship. i am just sick of not doing anything to get out of this mess- sick of the illness. anyone else ever feel like this? i need to go to counceling soon as i am slipping into a bad place.
I hope you get out of that bad situation you are now in.
GOD bless you, sassybabe.
I think a therapist is a good idea. A bit of guidance & someone you can bounce ideas off of, you know?
I have a hard time with getting out around people as well. If you don't feel okay about one on one at this point, group activities are awesome for this because the pressure is way off you. Things like book clubs or exercises classes are excellent because they have a focus that isn't on you, so you get to be around people, but not forced to socialize heavily. Obviously I don't know where you live, but in some cities there are meetup.com groups that are pretty good. I only go to ones that are all women, some of the stuff they do is of no interest to me, but some is alright. Maybe check & see if there are any where you are. I think even if you can just plan to get out for 2 hours once a week, you might start to feel a bit better & more hopeful.