I have some creative hobbies that are so absorbing that hours pass and fill like minutes and I'm often alone the whole time. Do you have any interest in painting, writing, learning to play an instrument, making collages, sculpting, cooking, gardening. . .you get the drift?

Yeah but I always have the feeling that I need to be talking to someone.

Do you have a good counsellor Shlay? I can understand that's its very difficult for you to be alone. One things strikes me - you say that you "really need to be talking to someone". Here's the thing, my guess it that the someone you need to be talking to is actually yourself. There's probably a lot of pain that you are trying to aviod - I know, I've been there.
I really would suggest a good counsellor will help you through this

I think you are right Barry. I see her every week and she is helping me work out a lot of stuff right now.

I will try to focus on breathing and figuring out what I am REALLY feeling that I am trying to avoid by having to be busy talking, being online, etc. I will close my eyes, breathe deeply and listen to my brain/body... am I hungry, sad, lonely, anxious, tired.... and then I will try to do what the appropriate response is. If i'm hungry, get something to eat, if I'm tired try to rest, if I'm anxious... what am I anxious about and do I need to write it down and face a fear, or just self talk myself to reality about it... etc.

I think a lot of the time I will try to 'fill' time instead of using it constructively to face what's really going on with me.

I'm just so scared of what's really going on in my head.

try slowly reading something without any TV OR RADIO on or a hobby something you thought you could do if you put your mind to it i started to paint again

I dunno you are 21 and bi-polar.. I think it is a phase.. what does your therapist say???

I mean I think this always talking or texting someone is a device you devised to help your anxiety.. and if it is working for you.. then why stop at least now..unless it is crippling you and causing your life to be unmanageable.

I think with spiritual and emotional growth this will calm down.. along with input from your therapist..

Listen talking on the phone and texting is better than abusing drugs right???

One more thing...

Recovery is about growth and taking small steps gradually... and over time you will see a change.

Always talking or texting, or taking drugs or alcohol, or overly helping others and getting involved in other people's problems, or over eating, or becoming workaholics, are all things we do to avoid feeling our feelings and dealing with our own problems.

It's great that you're going to a counselor and talking through your feelings. I was so terrified of being alone too. Instead of doing things to avoid, I started actually feeling those feelings and it was awful. But I survived one day, then the next, and the next. After time, I started feeling comfortable with myself. I started to do little things for myself and took care of myself. I pursued my dreams, interests and hobbies.