starting my life over. lots of options that are avaliable. have decided that i am code to my job that i dont like. thinking about doing a traveling job selling this house and getting out of this stale old life that i am leading. dont lke change but the present had become unbearable with ex and this job. guess i am thinking that i have to do this traveling job not to run away but because i have always wanted to do this. letting of so much. my ex, my sucking job, my sisters, friends that are not really friends, want a new life with challenges in my job and a new environment to flourish. of course i want all of this now but it cant happen now. so trying to tell myself-one day at a time. stay calm and do what needs to be done. look at all options and consider them till spring. i have accepted that i cant change the things around me, but still find these things to be stressors that wear on me. so frustrated when i get off work that i am almost paniced. we are loosing staff at work due to an almost unbearable boss. so now the place is on panic mode and wanting to know why people are leaving and why we have not tried to discuss these issues!!!!!!!!!!!! really well we have tried with no response. when all around us seems so hard to deal with, i start to feel despondent and overwhelmed. very unsatisfied with this situation at work. we are treated like bad childern, lied to about stuff, she denies that she said things that we damn well know that she said (boss) and always trying to turn things around to look like it somehow our fault. on top of recent split with ex it is very hard to deal with. want to quit tomorrow. of course i cant. but looking as i said at what my options are. thanks for listening.