...tonite i take the time to think and talk about antabuse..you know one day several weeks ago i jumped up and told samantha i'm going to the doctor and getting antabuse..she was not familiar so i described it to her and we went to the doctor and he with no questions prescribed it...my parents were elated as my family..my father has a history of alcoholism..so ther we were..antabuse and now all of a sudden i got cold feet because i knew that i would follow the protocol and my life without alcohol would end and the gateway to crack would be closed...my wife gave me the option to hold off but i kept moving and took the first pill..antabuse immediately stops the second option of abuse and shuts the door for me trying to escape from the realities i dont want to face...i do not smoke crak because i have problems but i drink beer because i dont want to face realilty and i have had to face reality from day one on antabuse..and since i dont drink..i dont have any urge to get high...but i will never forget how i felt beer die that first day and when i pass it in the grocery store it feels like a passing memory...
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