Cocaine Addiction & Recovery Support Group

Cocaine addiction is the excessive intake of cocaine, and can result in physiological damage, lethargy, depression, or a potentially fatal overdose. Though the immediate craving to do more cocaine is strong and very common, this feeling usually subsides in most users within an hour. This craving can, as it has in many users, develop rather quickly into an intense...

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How to let go

Princesadecolombia
Princesadecolombia
When I was 15 a much older man forced me to try crack. The summer I turned 15 he asked me to walk to the store with him. We ended up at a bar and he said he was just buying some beer so I could come in and he bought me a shot. I had been drinking since I was 12 so I said sure ill take a shot then he asked me if i had to go to the bathroom and I said no but he told me to go and make sure. I thought it was wierd but I went anyway and when I finished and tried to open the door he came rushing in, locked the door and started touching me. I pushed him off and he said he would stop if i tried some of his crack. I didnt even know what it was but i tried it thinkin it was harmless. I got hooked. I am so mad at the fact someone would ruine a 15 yr old like that. It was partially my fault but if he hadnt pushed it on me i wouldnt be here relapsin on coke.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Sounds to me like you might need to get some counseling for the sexual abuse you experienced. It is difficult to stay sober if you have a traumatic life incident that constantly plays over in your mind. Most of all you need to get into to substance abuse counseling and build a support network through cocaine anonymous. It is not something that you can fix or tackle alone. Many other people have gone through similiar situations. And it is o.k. to need some help. Look in your local phone book to find some treatment centers in your area. Alot of programs have government funding to help lower the cost of treatment. I am a drug counselor and our facility cannot refuse anyone for not being able to pay. All they have to do is get in, get better, and then make arrangements to pay their bill once they leave. You can be successful if you are sincere about change and willing to do anything to do anything that is suggested to you. Best of luck...
deleted_user
deleted_user
Agree with what chericline suggested and in addition suggest to also look for alternative recovery programs as well. If the 12 step does not fit.
It is is uncomfortable listen to your voice. There is smart recovery, mindful recovery, 16 steps to empowerment designed for Women....Women's shelter have loads of info on all of what you have been through. Been there myself...sexual abuse at age 7 drugs age 10 for about oh 30 years!!!! "Worked" the program and was heavily involved in P.R and starting new groups for a time they made sense,however; I grew beyond the steps...some stay with the steps some move on....listen to your voice....talk to counselors about alternatives...and empowerment ideologies with 2 dimensional focusing. (not to put down 12 steps just remember there is alternatives as well) one does not fit all...its it too diverse!