it's taken me a lot too finally admit I have an addiction and hopefully receive some guidance and advice. Bad personal experiences from you guys could help by scaring me.
Anyway, back 10 months ago I never once experienced any kind of illegal drug in which I never had any interest or temptations to even experience the highs. But 10 months ago I split up with my girl friend because she made the most difficult decision in travelling and making the most out of her life. She tried to persuade me too chose the same path but I had to refuse due too commitments and family. I was devestated and lost although I respected her decision and was never going to beg her to stay. She was younger than me and had too experience and find her happiness.
Sorry for the essays but I will be greatful to readers and responses
I was hurt and lost in which my friend persuaded me too go out and stop moping. We ended up going out every Friday and Saturday. One day we lost characters and tried cocaine after someone offered it too us. The day after I was disappointed and angry with myself in which we made a deal to never do it again. Weeks went by and we got it again.. and it became a regular thing on a Saturday. I began to enjoy the high and confidence that impacted on me. Then I kept getting regular messages from the dealer about new stuff etc... I started picking up 0.5 every weekend and take it without anyone knowing. Then I began to take more and escalated now too taking it twice a week and take as much as i feel i can handle. Some time 2.5g. Which from around £100 a month I can spend £200 in one week.
I am so desperate for help and find my self again but as soon as I feel I'm winning I always talk myself into it and before I know it it's in my hand.
I dunno what to do and I'm ashamed too tell anyone
Fine it strange this is a site abut coke and yet it's very quiet at night... Guess fhat could be a good thing really?
Hi. Just joined... had my first line aged 21 now 46 although my usage has been up and down (mainly a frequent social type user but more recently at home). Almost knocked it on the head completely a few years back but saw an old friend and fell back in to it. Married 10 years and two wonderful kids. Good job too! been seeing a therapist for a year or so and although she's great and I've learnt...