Seems like it's back well I guess it really never leaves... it's like Flashbacks always laying in wait! So many things going on and as I always say don't want to be here without my Husband and i'm tired of waiting for him to come and get me so I need to go to him... now i may feel differenrt at any given moment but right now just now feeling is so strong... and I'm trying to remember all the people who did complet there mission ,how I so did not understand it at the time but so understand now when you have that feeling of I just don't give a Fuck who will feel what when you do it! you just want the Pain to go away just fucking go away!