I guess this is part question and part vent. I try to play the cards that I have been dealt here to the best of my ability. I have gotten pretty good(most of the time)accepting that this is my life. On a day to day basis most of what I deal with is familiar, meaning usually whatever symptoms I am dealing with I have had at one time or another. It doesn't mean on days it's not worse, or that on some days, I can't get out of bed, but I'm usually not freaking because I know this is part of my life now.

Now to the point, sorry to be babbling on here, I'm a little thrown off today. I got some potentially bad news and that's what I wanted to ask about. When something else goes wrong with you, even though it's related to your disease, does it throw you? I seem to be able to handle my "usual symptoms, but when something new comes along it just really messes with my mind. I got a double whammy. My doc ordered a stat echo, but I totally expected it to be normal, well it wasn't. I never saw it coming and I know my body pretty well. Plus my doc ordered an mri said he was VERY concerned and brought up the dreaded C word. So even if the mri comes back negative and my cancer didn't spread, I've now got to deal with the fact that my sarc has advanced.

Anyway, just was curious how you guys deal with bad news when we are all pretty much used to bad news anyway. I feel like I should be used to it by now and it's just another step in the journey that we are all on.

Thanks for letting me ramble on, sorry if it doesn't make too much sense.

Melissa