I can't not reply to this..
But, am at a loss what to say.
I think most who live with chronic, intractable pain,
Have considered ending it at some time.
Especially if we are I'll as well as in pain.

I'm so sorry you're feeling this desperate.
Do you have any " real life" support you can talk to?
.. what has gotten you this far?

We're here.
Huhs
jc

I am sorry you are in so much pain that you are considering this the only option.

If there is anyone you could talk to face to face about how you are feeling and what the pain is doing to you I hope you can do it very soon. Any doctors, support program people, friends, councillor, anyone.

Pain constantly can be so very dibilitating and zap all the positive out of you. I do hope that you will reconsider your thought.

its ok hon , wee all come to the point your at , what about your family that ill only cause them pain right, i tried to take my life glad im here .
here today , what is causing your pain i know it seems hopeless at this time but later you well change your mind hugging you and sending prayers or good vibs hugs min

It's very difficult. I want to scream sometimes, but I can't kill myself, my dog needs me, my son needs me.

Who is the little dog in your picture?

Hang on because one day soon there may be real treatments and cures for pain.

I agree I think most of us have felt these moments, but I can think of so many more "good" moments I would have missed, if I would have let pain win the fight.

When my spirit gets low I imagine a door where I walk through it, close it and allow myself to leave my troubles behind me for at least a little while. This has a calming effect.

Another way is to think is this what you really want or is it a break from the pain that you are after. I hope most are just looking for that break. Then look for distraction. If it is serious of course look for help.

If what you are doing isn't working, then speak to your doctor. Pain meds are never enough. They are meant to go along with other treatments and it can take a long time to find what works for you. It took me years, I'm not cured, I have pain, I have bad days, but I am better than I was. I accept that.

I believe you took a step in the right direction......you put this post up. You are seeking help, which implies you really want to make it work. Take it a step further and share your feelings with an expert or someone irl. My suggestions are for day to day.

I wish you the best....hugs

I'm really sorry you're suffering so much, I often think that the emotional pain and suffering is almost as hard to handle as the physical. I get overwhelmed by it all sometimes too, I have days when I feel like I'm going to start screaming and/or crying and will never stop, I think most of us here do. I see a psychologist when things get to be too much, she can't cure my cp, but talking about things does seem to help. Take care.

Hi all, No real family support. I have one cousin who has the same exact medical problems/pain. She understands. I went through years of counseling.....I could tell you word for word what they will say. Pain meds only work for so long....then you become accustomed to them, I am holding out for medical marijuana. Maryland has passed the law but we have no distribution centers yet. I don't want the THC I want the stuff that kills pain without the high.

Take depression meds. Only help so much.

The little dog is my chihuahua. She is my life line along with my 3 minpins. They take my mind off of things. And yes they do need me.

I'm too chicken to kill myself. Knowing me I would screw it up and live and have even more pain.

Every morning when I drag myself out with my dog I know I am needed, she has a tumor now too so will need me more. Keep going.

Health care will have to change soon in the US then chronic pain won't just be a revolving door cash cow ( sorry to mix metaphors!) but someone will actually work to find a cure.

I am so sorry you are in so much pain; physically and emotionally. My heart breaks for you and I'm sending you healing thoughts, prayers and cyber hugs. I know this sounds easier said than done but....can you get outside for a bit. Walk until you find a place that calls your name- then sit It's terribly hard to be grateful when things are looking and feeling so bleak. Try it... a little today, a bit more tomorrow and then on. the physical activity and change of scenery will do you wonders. God is watching out for you child. Believe it, he hears your pain. We're with you- all the way! xoxoLyn

I'm sorry too that you're in so much pain every day. I hope and pray you will be able to have access to the MMJ sooner than later.

(((((((((HUGE HUGS))))))))

LMT

((Hugs))))
I can so relate to this horrible of feeling of being trapped by pain in a limbo between wanting to live and wanting it to end..
I think isolation is very damaging to all of us...
I don't know if it will help you at all but sometimes swaddling can decrease that awful crisis feeling.
I have a plush blanket and I swaddle in bed tightly at night .
Also being outside may relief some of the feeling of being trapped.

You do get accustomed to the meds over time. Then you can either switch meds or continue to escalate your dose. For me, escalating the dose makes me sick and unable to function. So I have recently stopped my meds and I am taking CBD with some success. I don't want to be physically dependent on the Norco any longer. I saved some to use only when my pain reaches a level 8-9. You will get some relief from the CBD once you get it. I hope you're feeling better. Hugs!

Hi All,

I can really relate to Jeremy's post. I have been living with burning and slicing brain pain for going on 8 years now. It stems from a bad vehicle accident that I was in 20 years ago at age 16. My meds do not work for a long period of time and I guess the amount of time that I do get relief is not enough. Really I'm in pain most of the time and home after a sick leave. I just got denied ssdi and have started the appeal process. I have very little support and am scared because I do not know how much more of this daily pain and suffering I can take. I got drunk one day at like 9 AM (Second time in my life) just to try to stop the pain and it only made me get angry. I am a fun loving and caring person but the pain is trying to make me something different. I fight it everyday. Please, if you pray to God, please pray for me and my family. I just don't know what to do anymore. Help!

Abby

Well, I'm over the withdrawals. I have never made it this long without breaking down and taking a pill. Last night my leg started cramping really bad and the pain was driving me crazy. I took a sleeping pill and knocked out 30 minutes later and woke up to less pain this morning. I have my medical compression sock on and the pain is there, but it's not quite as bad as last night. I'm determined to never use Norco again. I want to be sober-minded. But if the pain gets to an unbearable level, I will revisit my decision. I hope you're feeling better today Ak and Abby. Hugs!

Gosh Please Don't....I know how you feel....I know about the chronic pain...since the age of 10, I have lived with a chronic condition called "Hidradenitis Supperativa'...this leaves me with open, draining, and bleeding wounds in my Groin/Inner and Outer Labia, and Buttocks, just inches from my rectum. I can't Pee without a towel, and if God forbid I am constipated, it will look like a murder scene.I do not wish it on anyone, and I don't wish any kind of pain on anyone, And I wish ALL of us, could be healed once and for darn all.
I have no patience, tolerance or will to live this way either, nobody does, but you take it one day at a time, there is good in life, despite all our pain, please reconsider...or speak to someone about it.