I'm so tired of fighting. Fighting my own body to move past the pain. Fighting to not act how I feel. Fighting past the depression and sadness. Fighting the lawsuit. I feel utterly exhausted. Like I'm constantly running on empty just hoping I can make it through the day. Always hoping I'll wake up refueled and energized but I never do. Thoughts of not wanting to exist have come diving back into my head. Just for the pain to stop. I just need a break. A break from the pain, physical and emotional. If I can just have some time where my energy isn't constantly being drained I'd be stronger. I could handle more then. Right now I feel so weak. So unbelievably damaged.
The only carpet I have is in our basement...and that’s where my dog decided to pee. :( I cleaned it with bleach and boiling hot water (didn’t discolour the carpet). I can close the door to the basement, but it’s a matter of remembering. Argh. He’s pooped down there a few times but as gross as that is, it’s easier than cleaning pee. I generally like having the basement door open as...
Do you prefer to cook your own meal at hime ot go out to eatI can cook and like hoome cooked meals but prefer going out, more of a selection since I don;t know how to cook everything, lol