Im just venting here really quick if its screwy im on meds tonight. sorry. i am so thinking of the nerve block, after the ultrasound yesterday and the blood draw my pain has been just so much worse really since this last 20 hour car ride trip to louisiana then we had to drive back. i do not want to go to washigton state anymore just because of the pain. im taking my percocet which is for breakthrough pain like 2 to 4 times a day now. and i hate the way it makes me feel with the neurontin and the lidoderm patches. im so dizzy and sick feeling i literally have to lay down just so i dont fall, burn myself (did it tonight with the curling iron) go me. or just plain get sick. i cannot drive or think straight. ive called the dr but he hasnt called back yet. they found a lot of fluid in my pelvic region last month but they did an ultrasound yesterday and it was they couldnt see it, i have now is a follicle on one of my ovaries. dont know what that means. im just do anyone elses pain meds make them feel this way? im happy that the pain is deminsished somewhat it doesnt take it all away. the fentanyl did but i was allergic. and i try to space out the neurontin and the percocet to see if it one the neurontin will take the pain away then if that doesnt work i put on the patch. wait a while then im taking my pill just because my hubby finds me crying in the bathroom. i dont know how to talk to him about my pain but i know i need to. i just dont feel like me anymore, i used to exercise every morning, i worked in the school and would even run around with the kids, i did marathons every year for my pappy 26.2 miles in the new mexico desert. im going through depression right now i miss the old me and i know my family does too. y hubby wants me to sue the dr who did this to me. i really i just want to move on. find the cause of the pain and just fix it. i told him today somedays the ones where i call him at work i just want to rip myself open and make the pain go away. i told him ive told the er drs this. i go back to the gyn next week. him and my pain dr are finally talking to one another. i hope they can help. but i need some advice on the meds does the percocet does it make anyone else sick or that dizzy? maybe it is the neurontin i take 400mg 3 times a day. anyways just venting im not sure how to deal with all this pain and just emotions every day. i keep a journal mine and a pain one. plus a daily planner to help with meds. i forget things too. but just wanted to know what you all think sorry it is long it has been a rough couple of days here.
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