In regards to getting help let me say that every good thing I have done for myself has always started out with lots of fear and apprehension, yet in the end I was sooo glad I took those terrifying steps! Many here are willing to help you along your journey.Yes your physical pain may not go away, but shedding the pain of the past will truly lighten the burdens. You have nothing to lose only sooo much to gain! You're in my thoughts and prayers, Blaine

huggles tabby will miss you when in psych ward...take care of you...

Tabby, sweetheart; you are never alone. It is scary to ask for help and you have taken the first steps to do the right thing. We are all with you in this journey....love u hun. (((((((((((((( ))))))))))))))))))))))

Tabby, one of the scariest things we can do is ask for help, you've accomplished that big first step. We are all here for you. You are in my thoughts & prayers.

Hugs & God Bless
Lisa

There are millions of people who have been seriously harmed in childhood. Some of us were nearly killed by parents who should have loved us. We did not let that stop us. Don't let childhood abuse stop you from being what God meant for you to be. The START is not the thing that matters. Many saints were addicts, drunkards and womanizers. They changed their lives and went on to teach others from a place of understanding what it is like. There is no greater place to reach out to help others than really understanding how, why and what they feel. That is where you are right now. But you can't help anyone else deal with these issues until you learn to deal with these issues. To me you seem like you could use your intelligence and experiences to go on to reach out to others with a helping hand.

When you go to mental health ask them to teach you how to meditate properly.
One of the best stomach pain relief methods is to learn to breathe deeply to increase O2 and blood flow to the stomach area. Plus, meditating properly requires that you relax those stomach muscles completely. That will reduce pain and give you control.

Having control will help with this panic. One thing you can not do is to constantly choose to just start crying every time your think the pain is really bad. That increases tension in the stomach area and increases pain. It is totally counter productive.

I completely understand how you feel. My stomach hurts so much that I would gladly shoot myself if I could. I have a stomach ulcer. The way to reduce the pain and deal with it is to breathe deeply and relax that area to reduce pain to a tolerable level.

You must realize NOW that there are NO PAIN meds that they can use for this pain. They only slow digestion which causes other problems. YOU must learn to control this over reaction to your stomach pains.

help with the mental issues is ONLY going to help you learn to deal with the pain as well. Don't let fear prevent you from getting help now. No one should live with this constant desperation. Until you learn to control and deal with your anger, learn that it is yours to control, you will remain under guardianship of your parents and have to answer to them completely.

You are not a child anymore. It is time to grow up and do what you know you need to do to get better. It is clear that you are intelligent. Some here now believe that much of this is attention seeking. I am beginning to understand why. You are at the crossroads to choosing if you want to go thru life being seen as an attention seeking child or a valued adult who uses your intelligence to help others with understanding and patience.

No one but you can make this choice. It will be difficult. Nothing in life of value is ever easy. Please stop this pattern by seeking the help you have in front of you right now.

tabby it is real scary to battle mental illness and pain, i do it every day and things get tough but they are manageable and i get thru it...its not easy by all means...its a work in progress...you make mistakes learn from them and try other solutions

you are not alone we are all pulling for you...(((hugs)))

Thanks sunnybunn your so right I am intelligent Im not going to let what happened to me in the past stop me from living my life there is no medicine that Can take the pain away that my foster parents caused me the best Thing I can do for myself is learn to deal with what happened to me and accept that It happened I am going to do what ever I can to get better im going to ask the people to teach me how to deal with my anger in a positive way. I have a right to be angry but I cant always go around and be angry all of the time. I am a tough person I ask for help and that's the first step getting well I just have to do what they tell me to do and stay calm and positive. its not going to be easy but I have o do what I have to do to get better and that way I cant get off of guardianship

Tabby, I am hoping and praying that you are being honest here and will truly try to change your life. Sunnybunn is correct in the fact that you will never be able to be a responsible adult and not under guardianship if you don't make major changes. Try what I mentioned to you before and consider your mother in this situation. Do you think that what she wants for her life as well as yours is to have to watch over you? I can almost guarantee you that she doesn't. And I said, for you and her. There is so much life to be led sweetie and you are missing out. Please do whats needed and remember to always take this to God. Every morning and every evening, leave this burden with Him. The outcome could really surprise you. Lots of love, Nanasgot8

Good for YOU!!!!
You go girl.

Do NOT let anyone stop you. There are people in this world who need to know that others exist who suffer exactly like they do. And you are just the one they need to hear from.

If people try to put you off, you demand that they explain until YOU understand. You have the absolute right to learn. Asking questions is part of that and anyone who tells you otherwise is lying to you to put you off. That is not nice.

I had a teacher who told me that while she taught me to read, write, and do mathematics. I am so dyslexic that I was failing Math in 8th grade.
I got a big fat F!
For real!

She told me never let anyone tell you that your questions are stupid or compare you to anyone else in this world. The only person whose understanding matters is YOURS. Until someone can explain so you understand, they are wrong. Good teachers will work explaining things from every direction until the student learns. That is what a teacher is!

I went on to graduate from a prestigious North east ivy league college with high honors with a double science major (one was Mathematics) and go on to graduate school.
That is what demanding that teachers actually TEACH you at your level until you understand can gain for you.

Even if you ask the same question every day, don't let anyone stop you until you understand.

I really don't know why I feel so strongly about this. It just seems that when I think about you, it is as if god has things planned that he needs for you to do that only you can do. It starts here with understanding that
you are SMART
You can learn
you can control your anger
And you can teach others lifting them out of the pit of despair. Never lose sight of HIS plan for your life and you will go far.

Good luck
Praying for you
Sunny