Im sorry to hear about what you're going through...I had a similar experience about a year ago when I was awaiting surgery for my knee and could hardly walk. One thing that really helped me was that I started taking CBD because I wasn't interested in pharmaceutical medications and I heard that CBD helps with social anxiety, pain, and also uplifts your mood, and that is exactly what it did! It worked wonders for me and I couldn't even imagine it would work as well as it did and it really helped take away the pain, If you wanted to try for yourself I got mine from here: https://www.caliberbio.com/products/cbd-tincture/
If you aren't interested in taking anything to help, then always having an optimistic outlook on things and also remember that people around you will be very sympathetic and understanding to you that you are in pain, and you could mention that you are in discomfort. I hope you feel better,
Cheers
- Brandon

I had a similar issue as well dealing with my health issues. I had depression and anxiety when I was struggling over a long time to get answers and a treatment plan. Then when I had a treatment plan involving surgeries, I had anxiety bordering on panic for weeks on end. You're definitely not alone.

I don't know what your resources are, but despite being a very private person I did find it helpful to talk to a therapist. They were the impartial "third party" I needed, and a good outlet for me. Sending you good wishes for surgery. :)

I’m sorry how you feel. Yea chronic pain makes me feel helpless & depressed. I also have PTSD& related injuries & it really effects it. I know it feels lonely, I completely understand. I’m trying to take it one day at a time, one piece at a time
Know that you’re not alone here, I hope your surgery goes well & things get better
Sending support & gentlest of hugs <3

I can totally relate. When I have been in pain for hours or if pain is really severe, I get really short tempered. I have no tolerance for anything .

Dear Lucille,
I am so sorry you are suffering from social anxiety and feeling alone in your pain. Sometimes it feels like a cycle of avoiding people and then feeling lonely, you lose either way. I have days where going to the grocery store seems like a social engagement I don't want to go to :)
It is natural to feel depressed when you are in pain. I try not to think of myself as a depressed person and instead think of pain as depressing. Try and remember that you are still there, under the pain.
I hope your surgery helps and you feel a whole lot better after you recover. Don't give up and try to find anything that brings you joy even while you are suffering. My son bought me one of those coloring books for mother's day. So I colored a page to show him I liked it, it was so relaxing I started another one yesterday. You just never know what can help. Feel better soon. xo

Khadi I like to do art to help me as well. :)

Sometimes I have to force myself to start it, but I almost always feel more calm when I get done. Plus, it doesn't decrease my pain, but I notice the pain much less when I'm doing it.

I can totally relate to feeling ALONE having Chronic Pain!
I have had Chronic Pain and Daily Migraines for over 7 years that has forced me to spend many days inside of my apartment ALL day! I am a divorced woman & I live by myself w/a great cat but she is no substitute for basic, human, contact. Unfortunately, due to my almost daily Chronic Pain, I have had to cancel out on a lot of plans with friends over the years that led to many lost friendships!
Today I am happy to say that I have learned HOW TO BE ALONE AND NOT FEEL LONELY!
It has been quite a journey but I have learned many tools and skills over the years regarding HOW to live with Chronic Pain.
Today, I have my own, personalized, "Chronic Pain Program" that I try & practice everyday. (If you want to hear more, I can email you!)
As a result, I have a stronger "sense of self" because I know that I am NOT ALONE & how to take care of myself!
It has not been easy but I have had to teach myself HOW to "sit still with some uncomfortable feelings myself which I could NOT do before I had Chronic Pain! I always needed VALIDATION FROM OTHER PEOPLE to tell me I was a good person!
I am ok now with being alone and I have learned some, new, fun hobbies to do by myself.
I have also found a "'spiritual practice" that helps greatly with my lonely feelings, ease my stress and even help reduce my Chronic Pain!
Today, I am lucky to have some family that supports me and I am very, grateful to have "REAL FRIENDS" in my life who listen to me talk about my pain & do not judge me or rum away! They may not always UNDERSTAND what it is like to have Chronic Pain but I can count on them for "being there" for me and that means the WORLD TO ME!

I can totally relate to feeling ALONE living with Chronic Pain!
I have had Chronic Pain and mosy of all, Daily Migraines for over 7 years that has forced me to spend many days inside of my apartment ALL day!
I live by myself w/a great cat but she is no substitute for basic, human, contact. Unfortunately, due to my daily Chronic Pain, I have had to cancel out on a lot of plans with friends over the years & that has led to many lost friendships!

Today I am happy to say that I have learned HOW TO BE ALONE AND NOT FEEL SO LONELY!
It has been quite a journey but I have developed many, different skills over the years on HOW to live with Chronic Pain.
Today, I've my own, "Chronic Pain Program" that I try & practice everyday. (If you want to hear more, I can email you!)
As a result, I have a stronger "sense of self" because I know that I am NOT ALONE & I can take care of myself!
It has not been easy but I have learned HOW manage a lot of uncomfortable feelings in a healthy way which I could never do before I had developed Chronic Pain. In the past, I always needed some type of "VALIDATION FROM OTHER PEOPLE" to tell me I was a good person and that my feelings were OK.

Now, I have a "'spiritual practice" that helps me with my anxiety, my stress and even helps reduce my Chronic Pain!
Today, I am lucky to have a loving family that supports me and I am very grateful to have a few, "REAL FRIENDS" in my life who can listen to me talk about my pain & do not judge me or run away!
Everyone may not always UNDERSTAND what it is like to truly LIVE WITH Chronic Pain but I can count on them for sticking around when things get tough and most of all, I can count on myself for having the tools to pull me through!
I am here to talk, if you want? Or, I WELCOME EMAILS FROM ANYONE!
I would LOVE to hear other people's experience, strength & hope!
Take care,
Ecca

Of course it effects your mood.. Mine too.. it is unrelenting.. it wears you down and can actually cause chemical depression... I also get very short-tempered and sarcastic.. I sometimes go into what I call wounded animal mode. Where I basically hide from everyone. I don't want to burden them or put them through who I become when the pain is really bad.. HUGS