Chronic Pain Support Group
Physicians and professionalsdefine pain as chronic if it lasts longer than three to six months and is persistent. It's distinct from acute pain that is a direct result of injury or trauma. This support group is dedicated to those suffering from chronic pain. Discuss treatments that have worked for you, find advice for your specific experience, and find support. You're not...
Goal For Today?
I just don't do this stuff to myself anymore. I have to take one minute at a time just like when I got sober the first time 24 yrs ago & again 15 yrs ago. I learned my limitations, and one day is just too big for me. I can have a goal, but it must be an objective I can meet, rather than a set-up for me to fail at.
I learned much about myself when getting sober & that foundation of information has been the best experience for me to deal with this C.P.
I was a different person with different abilities 8 yrs ago when C.P. began it's daily living with me. I had a job. a big home I cared for, a huge garden to tend, and I did all the digging with the shovel to create that garden, I had teenaged daughters to tend to, and a few grand-children on the horizon. I had confidence, self-esteem, & a remarkable out look on how I was to live my life.
Then it all came crashing down around me as I dealt with all the new aspects of being a person with the illness of Chronic Pain.
My whole world changed seemingly over night. I began to experience judgement, assumption, & being either completely dismissed or threatened by the medical community. I was stuck in the bed under-medicated for over a year.
C.P. has gone on now for 8 years, this coming August I will begin the 9th year. I was unable to continue to work even with the medications. I have experienced so much negativity from the outside world & the world of sober friends & Family, that I just cannot live in the judgement of my self too.
So, my goal these days is to go throughout my day, minute by minute being aware of a Power Greater than I who has a plan for me that I do not understand, and that is okay. To go throughout my day doing whatever I need for myself & the pain I experience without the thought of what I could be doing if it weren't here, or judgement of myself of what I did not accomplish even though I wanted to do it.
To not get too upset when others do not "Get It." or they just do not want to, "Get It." To be able to be satisfied with being stuck in a bed if that is all I can do, so that I don't have more pain than what I have when I wake.
I have been drawn closer to my Spiritual Creator thru this C.P. experience, even closer than thru the sober experience.
This is not an easy thing to live with, as most illnesses are not.
I don't want to be smashing any happy, up moments any one is having, nor do I want to give a false hope to anyone.
We are all exactly where we are suppose to be at this moment in this world. It is not an easy thing to accept, but we can learn to have acceptance.
I never get to sit here and type without severe consequences and I feel those consequences coming on hard & fast so I must go now.
I love each & everyone of you, even if I do have a different spin on what having a goal for today can promote. I want you all to know I have met friends here on D.S. that will be lifetime friends, and many of you are more family to me than fiends. We all must do what ever we need to to for our individual selves to make this day the best experience possible for us & us alone, as we are the one experiencing it.
It is easy to let depression and a bad attitude overwhelm you when you experience this over a long period of time. I hope we all learn from each others experience.
In Love Light Truth &Service,
TerrieAnn
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I just don't do this stuff to myself anymore. I have to take one minute at a time just like when I got sober the first time 24 yrs ago & again 15 yrs ago. I learned my limitations, and one day is just too big for me. I can have a goal, but it must be an objective I can meet, rather than a set-up for me to fail at.
I learned much about myself when getting sober & that foundation of information has been the best experience for me to deal with this C.P.
I was a different person with different abilities 8 yrs ago when C.P. began it's daily living with me. I had a job. a big home I cared for, a huge garden to tend, and I did all the digging with the shovel to create that garden, I had teenaged daughters to tend to, and a few grand-children on the horizon. I had confidence, self-esteem, & a remarkable out look on how I was to live my life.
Then it all came crashing down around me as I dealt with all the new aspects of being a person with the illness of Chronic Pain.
My whole world changed seemingly over night. I began to experience judgement, assumption, & being either completely dismissed or threatened by the medical community. I was stuck in the bed under-medicated for over a year.
C.P. has gone on now for 8 years, this coming August I will begin the 9th year. I was unable to continue to work even with the medications. I have experienced so much negativity from the outside world & the world of sober friends & Family, that I just cannot live in the judgement of my self too.
So, my goal these days is to go throughout my day, minute by minute being aware of a Power Greater than I who has a plan for me that I do not understand, and that is okay. To go throughout my day doing whatever I need for myself & the pain I experience without the thought of what I could be doing if it weren't here, or judgement of myself of what I did not accomplish even though I wanted to do it.
To not get too upset when others do not "Get It." or they just do not want to, "Get It." To be able to be satisfied with being stuck in a bed if that is all I can do, so that I don't have more pain than what I have when I wake.
I have been drawn closer to my Spiritual Creator thru this C.P. experience, even closer than thru the sober experience.
This is not an easy thing to live with, as most illnesses are not.
I don't want to be smashing any happy, up moments any one is having, nor do I want to give a false hope to anyone.
We are all exactly where we are suppose to be at this moment in this world. It is not an easy thing to accept, but we can learn to have acceptance.
I never get to sit here and type without severe consequences and I feel those consequences coming on hard & fast so I must go now.
I love each & everyone of you, even if I do have a different spin on what having a goal for today can promote. I want you all to know I have met friends here on D.S. that will be lifetime friends, and many of you are more family to me than fiends. We all must do what ever we need to to for our individual selves to make this day the best experience possible for us & us alone, as we are the one experiencing it.
It is easy to let depression and a bad attitude overwhelm you when you experience this over a long period of time. I hope we all learn from each others experience.
In Love Light Truth &Service,
TerrieAnn
ralop
thank you and thank you for handling the pain long enough to wright this for us... ~stinke~
As it is, I have no choice but to work as much as I am able. Even a little is too painful, but I do it. So I don't consider that a goal, but a necessity.
Anything else I manage to do is decided at the moment I do it. And that doesn't mean I'll be able to finish, anyway.
So, if I manage to take care of the clients I've dared to book then I will consider that a goal met. If it isn't a means of bringing in some money...it doesn't count.
I'm sorry if this sounds kind of angry or shallow...it's my reality.
It's been a while since you've been around, "stubborn" Terrie Ann, right? It's good to see you posting again!
Hugs,
Theresa
i don't mean this defensively, but just the nature in which it's intended and, i believe, used. as with all threads, they are completely voluntary and no one is guilted for not adding to a thread.
i respect all you've done with your life and your perspective. thanks!
TerrieAnn...
I absolutely agree with your " spin".....
Don't know if y'all have read the goal for....thread...but it's pretty much a goal - for -the moment thing.......and ...some moments...the goal is to just get to the next moment...I have spent the last three yrs mostly bedridden....I pat myself on the back for doing things I expect of my three yr old granddaughter....
I GET it....
I also feel that, if there are no more goals at all, ever...as my life has been for so long now.....I am only dying in slow motion...
Hugs n peace to all...jc
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