Chronic Pain Support Group
Physicians and professionalsdefine pain as chronic if it lasts longer than three to six months and is persistent. It's distinct from acute pain that is a direct result of injury or trauma. This support group is dedicated to those suffering from chronic pain. Discuss treatments that have worked for you, find advice for your specific experience, and find support. You're not...
That this post is just about me.....
I don't even know what about me...
Some of ya have noted that since I've been here, I've had recurrent health (as opposed to pain...I guess)......and varied health issues.
Some pretty major scare ones.....
Most, if not all, related to whatever today's dx for pain is...or some lousy result of treatment or Med..........
I'm vague or criptique, or whatever, about most of that stuff....'cause incidentals don't seem to matter much.......and I can only do so much typing......
Anyhow......this latest "flu"...."respiratory infection" is pneumonia minus the ray........I'd have to go to actual hospital for ray and won't go there 'til there's no choice at all.
There's kinda no choice at all right now, as current treatment isn't working....and I actually am feeling like I could use the help enough to stand being in hospital for a minute.......
Buuuuut...today is my Moms last day on a visit from Florida....and she won't leave if she knows how crappy I'm still doing.....
......aaaaaand.....my younger cousin is at this moment having emergency triple bypass surgery and Mom's more than stressed enough already.
Sooooo.....after months of fighting every damn thing I possibly could from home...because that was my preference....I have finally had my ass sufficiently whipped by something enough to not even want to fight it from home any more.........aaaaaand....things have conspired to keep me home.........isn't that friggin' ironic?
Spending the day now just trying to appear well enough that Mom feels comfortable leaving.......
I don't know what the hell the point of this post is......
I feel like I'm failing my friends here....I'm sorry I'm so unavailable so much of the time....
Lately it seems all I can do to pop in and out here and there....almost never admitting how pretty awful things are when I'm not "on"......
I didn't used to be such a flake...I didn't used to fail my friends....I'm sorry..........
Most of me just want to cancel this post instead of sending it...I just feel kinda like a fake comin' on here like I'm all funny or something, then crawling back under the covers to hide.....
I really appreciate you all sooooo much....I'm sorry I've not been responding to all replies and messages.....
This....like everything else...will pass, and hopefully I will start giving more back again....
Sorry this turned into a book.....
Luv n hugs all around......jc..
I don't even know what about me...
Some of ya have noted that since I've been here, I've had recurrent health (as opposed to pain...I guess)......and varied health issues.
Some pretty major scare ones.....
Most, if not all, related to whatever today's dx for pain is...or some lousy result of treatment or Med..........
I'm vague or criptique, or whatever, about most of that stuff....'cause incidentals don't seem to matter much.......and I can only do so much typing......
Anyhow......this latest "flu"...."respiratory infection" is pneumonia minus the ray........I'd have to go to actual hospital for ray and won't go there 'til there's no choice at all.
There's kinda no choice at all right now, as current treatment isn't working....and I actually am feeling like I could use the help enough to stand being in hospital for a minute.......
Buuuuut...today is my Moms last day on a visit from Florida....and she won't leave if she knows how crappy I'm still doing.....
......aaaaaand.....my younger cousin is at this moment having emergency triple bypass surgery and Mom's more than stressed enough already.
Sooooo.....after months of fighting every damn thing I possibly could from home...because that was my preference....I have finally had my ass sufficiently whipped by something enough to not even want to fight it from home any more.........aaaaaand....things have conspired to keep me home.........isn't that friggin' ironic?
Spending the day now just trying to appear well enough that Mom feels comfortable leaving.......
I don't know what the hell the point of this post is......
I feel like I'm failing my friends here....I'm sorry I'm so unavailable so much of the time....
Lately it seems all I can do to pop in and out here and there....almost never admitting how pretty awful things are when I'm not "on"......
I didn't used to be such a flake...I didn't used to fail my friends....I'm sorry..........
Most of me just want to cancel this post instead of sending it...I just feel kinda like a fake comin' on here like I'm all funny or something, then crawling back under the covers to hide.....
I really appreciate you all sooooo much....I'm sorry I've not been responding to all replies and messages.....
This....like everything else...will pass, and hopefully I will start giving more back again....
Sorry this turned into a book.....
Luv n hugs all around......jc..
i hope you don't have to go, but please do if you aren't getting better.
you are such a supporter, please don't feel bad for not taking care of all of us. we're a group. i do miss your wonderful sense of humor. so i just want you to be well.
i have to get going, but i'll check in by phone.
love and hugs to you, dear jan
No worries my friend! In case you hadn't noticed, you are not the only one who doesn't throw it all out there and uses humor and silliness to cover and cope!
So cut yourself some slack! We here all understand, and no one is going to take it personally if you are quiet. You will be here when you can and you will be talkative when you can. We get it!
I understand on your Mom, and yes that is ironic, worries me though for you to say you are ready to go to the hospital because I know how much you hate it and how hard you have fought to stay at home. If you feel you need to go, THEN YOU NEED TO GO!
Your Mom would not want you to hurt yourself, and if you did, that would just be even more stress for her.....SO......GO!
I love you. I am praying, sending healing thoughts, hugs, love, peace, and comfort.
Now go tell your DH that you need to go!
Tonna
5 minutes or 50 minutes. It's all good as long as you don't burn yourself out in trying to be everything for everyone. The world is really a nice place for having you in it.
Angela
For you to say you are ready to go to the hospital as much as you hate them, I think it might be in your best interest to GO TO THE HOSPITAL!!!! You said it yourself that you are willing to get the help to get better.
We love you and want you to get better. And we totally understand why you use humor to navigate your way through the boards and life. I can do the same thing at times!
I just want you to get well. We want you to get well. I know your mom would want you to get well! Im sure she is already stressed about your condition as it is, she may feel relief if you go to the hospital to get treatment. Just my opinion though.
Gentle hugs,
Jenna
I don't know what all is going on with you medically (and I don't have to). You are in my prayers for restored health.
Hugs,
Cindy
Just the act of helping another makes us feel good, so don't be selfish in feeling guilty! lol
I'm glad you have decided to go to the hospital....I think you will be able to get well much faster that way and be back here in not time.
Hugs, love and speedy recovery.
I just hope you can love yourself enough to do what you need to do to take care of yourself.
Hugs and Love,
Ama
Much love, many prayers....and lots a love!!!!!!
Deb
As part of my great just fake it 'til Mom leaves tomorrow plan...
I took extra (allowed by the script) prednisone...just as kind-of a shot in the dark.....and it does seem to be helping my breathing quite a bit.
Thanks, everyone for your support.....huhs....jc..
Please my friend, go to the hospital... when Mom leaves and I totally understand the "Family Mask" thing..
Sending healing Hugs n vibes... it's time to let someone look after you for a change.... luv ya x
So...let me get this straightt...you put on a bigger bandage to buy yourself a little more time? Are you afraid your Mom might want to stay longer to be of help to you if she new just how sick you're feeling? Well...I guess I understand that part since I'd rather cuddle with my dogs than have my Mom hovering.
Now, stop trying to be everything to everybody on DS. That's too much pressure...even for a normal! There's a reason why this is called a 'group'!
Tough love here...get your ass to the hospital!
Big hugs...
Cherry
I also wanted to reference the post about being human that we see on here occasionally. It states that sometimes we laugh and joke, but that does not mean we are not hurting or are magically better. It just means we are happy in the moment or love to joke around. It doesn't take away our daily struggles. We must remember to live by the things we want the "normals" to understand and understand those same things of each other.