Gentle hugs. I'm sorry I can't take your pain away.

I hope you get to feeling better. Does your pain management doctor know all this? I know they're a little slow to pull the trigger on meds, but it sounds like you might need something more.

David.

Ah, Cherry, I'm so sorry. I know what it is to have to work while in pain. Maybe you will be lucky and a conversation will interest you and before you know it, it will be over. Small concession, I know because the work makes it worse. I just signed up to work saturday so I could save the day for everyone. But I'm an idiot.

The arthritis foundation is a huge organization who are making leaps and bounds, plus you have doctors on your side. You have that darlin, and us. We are here for you and sending you our love and prayers.

Get lots of downtime tonight and know you are loved.

I admire you so much! I can't believe that through all of that you are still able to take clients! I got halfway through cosmetology and I had to hit the breaks because of my fibro pain. I've been on a break from it for almost 3 months now. I wasnt strong enough like you to work through it.

Dearest Cherry,

I admire you so much too Cherry, you do much more than I can ever dream of doing. But at some point you are going to have to face the reality that you just can't continue doing the same things. Have you thought about teaching? Instead of doing the work yourself maybe you could supervise. You inspire me to keep trying and I love that about you, but you need to take care of you! I love you dear, Hugs, Cathy

Cherry, My computer is not working but on DH's.
I know how you feel.... I remember my last few years of teaching, when I would just lie down on the floor while the students were at P.E.

You have been through so much lately with what happened to your son and all.
I know all the stress makes us feel worse but having to use the parts of your body that are hurting is beyond imaginable to me anymore.

I wish I could make the pain go away. I will be praying for you.

Hugs.

I am soo sorry you are in that place of hell. A friend of mine tells me to have faith...a long time friend.....it's hard to do that sometimes and he tells me that he will have faith for me when it gets that bad....so I will pass it on and say that I will have faith for you in your time of need. I have faith that tomorrow will bring you some sort of relief, be it physical or emotional from the hell you are in. :)

Hi Cherry,
I don't know how you do it. I had to quit my job. It just became too difficult to work. I don't regret it at all. My life changed for the better.
I hope you find relief soon, one way or another. Sometimes, being brave means surrendering rather than fighting. (just a thought... you know what's best for you).
Take care,
Ama

You are all so kind. I really appreciate all the support you're giving me. Giving up work would be the best thing for my body, but I don't have a choice if I want to keep my home. Even if I closed my salon and sold my house, I really don't know where I'd go.

The guy who rents a room in my house is always venting and swearing at me because I'm handy. Today, though, it was horrible and the anxiety he caused has really sent my pain level off the charts. It was bad when I got up, worse as I worked and by the time I was finished, I was ready to take every med I had.

Then he called from across the street where he was working and started yelling about the neighbor who came over and plans to report him for working on disability. He's mad that I won't lie to the police and say I witnessed whatever it was going on.

He continued the ranting and swearing until I was ready to run from my own home. During the uproar, he said he had to get out of this house, town, state...because everyone is trying to put him in jail!!!

I'd like a new tenant...

Every once in awhile, we all need to lean on someone. Then, we feel a bit better one day and are able to let someone else lean on us.

Right now, lean on us all you need to. We are here!

Sending you the biggest hugs...your day sounded just aweful! And your tenant sounds like he has serious issues. Maybe it is time for your tenant to find a new home. Certainly you do not need the added aggregation in your life. Keep us updated on how things are going and take care of yourself. Here's wishing you a peaceful night and a home filled with nothing but peace. Hugs, Cathy

This is so sad, it makes me sick to think of all the pain you must endure just to survive.
I hope today finds it a little easier.

Hugs
Trooper

Thanks so much for all the kind replies. I realized, after the fact, that I shouldn't be carrying on about my misery so much. I know so many suffer so much more than I do. I haven't even been as supportive or welcoming to new members as I intend to be.

I wish I could say that today has started better, but my damned pain and stress haven't shown any sign of easing. As long as I make it through a tough morning of work, I'll have a couple days off to do...well, probably very little.

Holding my breath to see what my tenant will behave like today. I hope his threat to move out was serious. I need to bring back the safe energy that made this my home.

Love,
Cherry

My goodness, can you ask him to move? He sounds like one of my husbands old friends we had living with us. Had us all walking on eggshells & me not wanting to come out of my room.
Finally I'd had enough & told me husband I could not take it anymore.

Life is hard enough & you are right, the negative can cause a reaction with our pain levels. We don't need anything else to deal with. You need someone positive & maybe someone who could help out a little. Lets hope this guy moves on.....Out of state sounds good...Maybe you could encourage him to start over some where else far, far away....Best of luck my friend, I'm still trying to get a few hrs in also & its hard. Physically it would be best if I just let go but mentally I think it would bring me down.
God bless sweetie & hang in there. Sammy

Hell honey.............don't ASK him to move........send him on his merry way.and don't let the door hit him in the ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You sure don't need that added stress!!!!!!!!

And if he is a roommate for financial reasons........get another one!! Sounds like he has way over stepped his boundaries!!!

So sorry you are going through this!!!!!!!!!