I am so sorry. I can not imagine the pain you must be in.

No, I am glad that you are still among us. Each day is hope that there maybe better treatments, soon. You can do this, we are here to support and help as best as we can.

With your injuries, have they suggested the pain pump that they put in the back? Nerve pain is hell. I don't know how effective that is for nerve pain.

Sending lots of positive energy and prayers.

I hit that pit of hopelessness also. I would guess that we all do. Please try to hang in there. Keep us up to date on how you are doing.

Hugs-RJ

I'm so very sorry. You've had more than your share of agony. I hope and pray that the tide will turn for you soon.

Do you think that when your sternum heals that your pain will subside? I hope so.

Sending you GENTLE (((HUGS!)))

no, they havent suggested a pain pump

i dont know if itll stop hurting... but even if it doesm im convinced something else will happen to keep me in the pit

im not at all sure im not in hell right now, literally

I'm so sorry for what you are going through. It must be hell to be in that much pain. I'm glad you posted - we're here for you and will support you any way we can.

Hugs,

Lynn

my pain dr doesnt have any appointments till july :(

but i found a new primary care dr that ill see on monday... i dont know anything about him and have had terrible luck in that department lately, but maybe he can at least help me find a pain dr i can see soon

my last 2 drs have been ridiculous... the first one tokd me to "think away the pain" from the nerve damage in my shattered arm and the next one didnt even ask me to take off a shoe when i went to see him about my broken foot...

so sorry this happened to you...you have my prayers

Wow vallonzek, who wouldn't feel that way in your situation? I know sometimes doctors won't listen and want to write us off. Keep fighting for yourself and find one that will try to help you. It can get so frustrating but you don't deserve this.

thanks all

*hugs*

ill post about what happens monday

i screwed up tho... i have 3 dr apts monday and the ride i have set up thinks its only 2... i may have to cancel one

I'm glad you were not killed in that accident and as much as you feel that way right now, you have a purpose here and one day you will know what it is. I understand pain far too well and so does everyone here but we stick together, support one another and never give up. Sounds a little selfish? Maybe so , but we want you to stay with the family here on DS. Many soft hugs GB

i went to my new primary care dr today... he gave me a shot of muscle relaxers that helped a lot

i still hurt, a lot at times... but i can live with this

he also reffered me to a "car accident dr"... whatever that is... i see him thursday

he sent 2 prescriptionis to the drug store too... but they called and said insurance declined one of them... he said for 60 pills it was...

get this....

$13,200.

so hes gonna call the dr tomorrow to see what went wrong...

i suspect the student that was shadowing him made some kinda error somewhere, heh

new dr yesterday gave me a few pain killers, and in concert with the muscle relaxers, it has become livable again... still hurts, but not nearly as bad

he started me on a physical therapy routine, which i start in a few hours

he also x-ray'd my arm and said it needs to stay casted another 7-10 days

these drs are starting to conflict tho... this dr suggested i wont need to see the bone dr today cause he already looked at my arm and said the cast should stay... but the guy im sposed to see today had said id need a replacement cause the swelling would have gone down,,, which it has... im gonna go cause i wanna wash my arm under the cast, and im hoping maybe i can get a smaller (or maybe even removable) cast

his nurse also suggested that physical therapy means i dont need to see the chiropractor but i kinda wanna keep going to that... im not completely sure why... all he's been able to do so far is apply heat to my shoulders and run a massager on my back and crack my neck a few times... but i like it, so i think im gonna keep going

anyway... the moral of the story is that a combination of muscle relaxers and pain killers have made life much more tollerable

:)

ty all for the kind words and well wishes

*hugs*

Vallon i understand what you are going through. 17 years ago i slipped on some water in front of my tub and landed with my neck and back on a corner of a concrete wall that was sticking outwards, it was the beginning to a world of hell of suffering. I kept going to drs, ers, they did xrays and mris, some of them knew i had a fractured neck but did nothing. Over time the pain kept getting worse and my skin started turning gray, my husband took me to a dr that did an mri (further away)he sent me to a neurosurgeon. He told me i would die if i didnt have surgery. I got right in and they did a fusion of c 5-6 my spinal?chord was open only a half an inch. He told me he was puting titanium in. When it started turning cold outside all of a sudden had pain in my eyes couldnt look at the light and was in severe pain. Kept going back to him and he said the hardware looks good. Several monthes later i developed meningitis kept going to drs who did nothing was Almost dead when they found it. Then went through medical dr hell for several years after. Just got a diagnosis of arachnoiditis the pain is compared to cancer pain. I know how it feels to want to sleep so you dont feel the pain. Also found out the surgeon put stainless steel in instead of titanium. So when it gets cold the pain is unlivable. Cant have an mri because the metal heats up. I fight depression everyday. Just remember never give up. You are worth it. Dont let it win. No matter what comes your way, never give up. Try several things to help with the pain. Heat is a good one. I take warm showers and rub my tiger balm on it gives me some relief. Keep your mind busy. Movies music etc. It helps too. I do know how you feel i have my dark moments when i think the same thoughts you have. But hang on. This support group helped me through those times and i am forever grateful for this site. We are all family here. I concentrate on helping others. This helps me not think of the pain. Hang in there. Never give up. And if you need someone to talk to i am here. Angela

Glad you're still here, and glad the meds are helping you bare through it! Hopefully these doctors can come to some sort of treatment plan for you...

My husband wrecked his motorcycle almost a month ago, has a subarachnoid hemorrhage, a fractured manubrium (top of sternum), broken collar bone, chipped foot, and some sort of injury to his neck because that hurts like hell.... when he coughs or sneezes, he says it hurts his chest SOO bad.

Hopefully all of us can find some sort of relief. I feel like I'm at my wits end since my surgery pretty much failed. I still keep getting the same pain as before, just as bad... thankfully not daily like before, but atleast every other day. Right down the back of my leg, like someones trying to pull my damn nerve out from the top!

angel you sound a lot like me... ive done all of those things and suggested them too... i know they help... but sometimes the pain is just too much

pink, ouch... most of my friends have been bikers but i knew at an early age that it would be the death of me... or worse... i just break too easy to ride

UPDATE: (i thought i had posted this a couple days ago but apparently i forgot to hit the add button)

theyre giving me light therapy on my chest, which, surprisingly, really seems to be helping a lot... im also getting electric stimulous along the top of the spine

together with muscle relaxers and pain pills and anti inflamatory meds, its making a huge difference... i still hurt like hell, but its nothing like it was

the dr thats doing my arm took xrays the other day and said he doesnt like the way its healing... said he might have to re-break it... when he took off the cast to replace it, it was obvious, its not growing back right... he gave it a big squish while putting the new cast on... which hurt a lot for days... so hopefully that squished it back into place

but the other bone dr im seeing says thats crazy, and his physical therapy partner says once the cast comes off, he can help it

so i dunno what im gonna do about that

oh my gosh hun, you have had so much pain and horrible luck. I don't know your pain. but I have thought about suicide many times. due to pain. We have to take it day by day. hour by hour or minute by minute if we have to. It can get better, but doesn't seem that way now. I too am glad you are still alive. You have people who care about you. Family, friends and your family here.

I will pray for your relief... you don't have to believe, all that matters is that I believe :)