NO, I've been like this since I was 17, I'm now 43...my family and what few friends I have left have gotten the picture pretty clear of what I can and cannot do. And I do not do things I'm not allowed or able to do to impress people, as I don't realy give a rats ass if their impressed.

Kat

its not about showing off, its more to prove to myself what I can do.
being in pain since 19 years old.
sick and tired off sitting around and being bored.

I over do it at times to prove to myself that life ain't over just because I have pain. That's where I run into problems. At my age, I don't do the people pleasing thing anymore. People's opinions don't figure into my big picture as they once did.

It's me and my denial that get me into trouble, lol!

Dirt bikes huh? Dang, that hurts just thinking' about it.

hey it was fun.
I had fun, I had my son on the bike with me.
I want my kids to say cause mum in pain, least she doesn't spend time in bed, she takes us camping,horse riding.
I know my limits but I over do it.

I never do it to show other people I can. I don't care what others think because no one is ever there when I need them.

I will do it to spit in the face of my disability. If I get a chance to ride a dirt bike and I know it will be my only chance, I will evaluate the consequences and likely take a shorter ride. Then get pain killers ready and take the hit later and not complain. While I sit in pain, I'll conjur up the memory of the ride and it makes it better.

I figure I'm likely going to be in pain anyways, so I might as well have a good memory attached.

I think what you are saying is you did cause you really wanted to and it was fun. That eventhough it hurt it reminded you that you are alive. Sometimes i wish I had the strength to do things cause it looks like fun, and it so different then sitting around all the time. Unfortuanately when we do something we know will probably will cause extra pain we all have to deal with that fact. I want to do something so bad sometimes I think I might do something and pay for it. But then I would be on me cause I did it knowing and If I hurt myself, I know I would have myself to blame. But I understand what you are saying. Sorry it does sound like fun. If you don't think about being in pain doing it. I would to have a motorcycle but that not going to happen. Alot dreams went out the window, I guess I probably would do things I shouldn't sometimes if I had the oppurtunity. I am stuck my house so all I can do is daydream about things.