I do at times. I have projects I can do around here but sometimes the walls close in and I find I hide in a book or online instead of sitting and crocheting or cleaning a cupboard. I think it's because I still mourn feeling truly useful in the world and some days the banal little things I find to do just make me more depressed when my job used to be so dynamic.
Not a bad week, exhausted from making pie on Wed and then Thanksgiving visiting on Thursday. Also digging deep to find the energy to kick the recent reoccurance of my sugar addiction. The first few days are going to stink but I know I'll feel better in the long run getting back to more of a paleo diet...but oh, the chocolate calls me...

I had a busy week with two doctor's appointments and pushed through, so feeling very flat physically. My computer's back up and running, so that's one stress off, but am still feeling very down.

I know that feeling very well and have been particularly suffering from it the last couple of weeks. Discouragement and frustration have been constant companions and even watching things that usually cheer me up is not helping. I keep thinking "I wish I could just do that" whenever the characters do even the most simple things.

I'm sorry, CMIAT, that you are down. I think discouragement is one of our enemies with this awful disease. Hang in there.

I'm sorry for all of us.It is such a constant struggle .I went to work in my shop today.My husband drove, opened up and closed up, and made food to take.I just had to sell and most of the time I was sitting in my chair.When I had to stand up and talk to make sales I was just running on nervous energy.By 1.00 pm I felt like fainting on the concrete.By 2.30 pm I barely made it to the car and then I just cried all the way home continually apologizing to my husband as he drove.
I'm too sick to work but need the extra income.Some weeks I am bedridden all week .Today I thought I felt a lot better and would cope with working. I was wrong. So ends my week.There has to be another way.God please increase my intelligence.Hugs xo

I know what you mean about the fear. With me the fear is usually because I do actually need to rest. Sometimes I test my body by getting it moving with a hot bath or gentle chi kung outside. Sometimes this helps me realise that it's okay to move and sometimes my body truly needs a few days of not moving and then seems to get going again, as much as it can 'get going'. It's very frustratting but generally I try and trust my body although I do do alot of catastrophising at my husband, poor thing.

Had a good week with the odd off day. Last another 2lbs, yay. Think my hormonal problems are sorting themselves out on this diet, also yay! had a day of not being able to find anything to watch and getting depressed, but was fine the next day. Have started doing some zen meditation again, which am finding very grounding and relaxing. Waiting for my voice dictation Dragon thing to come in post and brainstormed a few stories with my husband. Both apprehensive and excited about that. Still got fluid on ear and antihistamines are making me very dim, spent 3 days thinkin it was friday last week and even messaged people with that in mind. 4 more weeks of it. Weather has been awful and feet still painful from hospital visits so only sitting outside very occasionally so gettin a bit down but have lightpod which am tryin to use. (Sorry long post)