i just thought i would share the lyrics of this great christian song. when i get the urge to chat with men, this is EXACTLY how i feel inside.. this girl must have been in my head, scary!
My eyes have a rosy glaze
(As darkness falls)
I'm dancing on a razor blade
(It's killing me)
Such a dangerous attraction
I'm flirting with fire
A desire reason just can't tame
I'm gonna regret this
It's the shadow inside my mind
And I'm in denial
I'm becoming quite a liar
Does that make me beautiful tonight
(To Someone)
In my sickness can you find me
Beautiful tonight
The moonlight plays against my skin
(You found me out)
Midnight sometimes is my only friend
(Don't leave me now)
The hunger it eats me alive
I'm falling, dissolving
It's crawling into my veins
I'm gonna regret this
It's the shadow inside my mind
And I'm in denial
I'm becoming quite a liar
Does that make me beautiful tonight
In my sickness can you find me
Beautiful tonight
Wow, that kind of reminds me of the lyrics to a few other songs, like Demon Hunter's song "Ribcage" (They're a christian metalcore band), and Emery's song, "Story about a man with a bad heart".
Ribcage:
All hail the newborn sin
Reject the boundaries and soak the cancer in
Hope kills the filth you crave
So bleed the truth out and fall into that grave
Uphold the brand new skin
Accept the failure, refuse to rise above
Break through the ribcage
And tear the heart out from everyone that you love
(Pre-chorus:)
Over and over again
We'll bury the shame underneath the lies we breathe
Over and over again
We'll carry the blame for the hell that we can't leave
(Chorus:)
Show me - the path that leads into your mind
Release - The thoughts you lock so deep inside
Show me - I'm the one who knew this pain
Release - Before you fall into this again
Behold the loyal slave
His rotting shell now a tomb where death can play
See nopw his pride caves in
Alone he fights to stop this dark decay
Feed, feed the lust you need
And fainter grows each plea from skies above
Break through the ribcage
And tear the heart out from everyone that you love
(Pre-chorus)
(Chorus)
Building a life out of all that you hate
We see through the front that you tried to create
The world that you had hoped for was only a fake
And just like the maggots that made you this way
I know
Story about a man with a bad heart:
Watch your makeup,
there is just a smudge beneath the eye.
You look great in that dress,
it hits every curve just right.
We're got dinner at eight, and then drinks by nine.
I love you so, it's out anniversary tonight.
Suddenly everything shakes as if it's starting to break.
And now I'm on my knees,
my wife screams, "What's Wrong!?"
As the stereo plays our song,
Only In Dreams.
Just last Friday is when my heart failed again.
I was thinking that I should find a friend.
I bought her several drinks,
and slipped the ring into my hand.
We drove to her place
and let the good times roll again.
Suddenly everything shakes as my protection breaks.
And now I'm on my knees,
and I scream, "This was wrong!"
As I leave, the stereo plays the song,
The Finishing.
Is this it? Is this how I have spent my life?
Lying there with a broken heart on bedroom floors.
And finally, finally, I realize,
I realize that I'm only a man.
I'm only a man.
I'm only a man.
I'm only a man.
(One thing I have to know, where did the miracles go?
And if a simple man believes, will it start again with me?)
(If I were the maker I would fashion out a blade.
To cut out every inch of dead heart I've made.)
Iâ??m watching this screen
These lies played out before my eyes
And how they know everything
Everything comes easy
Well I never had it easy
I was never lucky
It was never easy
And you sit there
And you judge my commitment
(One thing I have to know, where did the miracles go?
And if a simple man believes, will it start again with me?)
(If I were the maker I would fashion out a blade.
To cut out every inch of dead heart I've made.)
You people could say that Iâ??m the bad guy
Because I was weak
I was weak once or twice
Well let me tell you
Iâ??m standing in the lead
I am standing in the lead
Because I canâ??t control this person behind my hands
Oh yeah, and of course Slow Fade by Casting Crowns, and PS by Project 86:
Slow Fade:
Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade
Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day
Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
PS:
Her heart bleeds
It is a basis for your heartfelt hunger so gaze
At the page at the faces of nameless...
You're alone again
And this distortion is an apt replacement for
An unquenchable desire for more
More pages strewn across this sickening floor
I can't look at any of this
If they saw what those eyes have seen
Oh how her heart it would bleed
If she only knew those abusive roots
And how the children would weep
If they only saw what those eyes have seen
It always keeps us longer than we wanted to stay
It always takes us further than we wanted to go
But you don't seem to mind at the time
Begging to be set free...from what we were meant to be
Innocence
It's inside you and your soul is longing, yearning
Pleading to be set free
Within your eyes, within my eyes, within our eyes
There could never be a more complete perversion of what we
were meant to be
And with all that is in me I hate this
As we're sinking inside this ever-feeding illnes
We are all quite silent
Sitting still
And I'll try to quit coming up with more examples, lol, but if anyone else has some, feel free to let me know.
oh wow. i love emery, demon hunter and casting crowns... very great bands! here is another song that i find a huge source of strength for me and my struggle with sexual sin. it is "let go" by red... an awesome group! i listen to them every day as i workout. i'll also post the link to it at the bottom so you can listen.
Let Go
Hey you, look what you do to me
You bend and you bruise me
Why you try to control me?
But you don't know me
How come you just want to hurt me?
How come you just want to push me?
I can't ignore you anymore
Cause everywhere I turn you
You burn me, you break me
You always want to take me down with you
What do you want from me?
I don't wanna be afraid, I don't wanna run away
I don't want to be here fading it's more that I can take
I'm never gonna be the same
I threw it all away
I don't want to be here fading
Just let go! (look what you do to me)
Let go! (look what you do to me)
Hey you, look what you do to me
You burnt and you scared me
With all that you tell me (but I don't listen!)
You love me, you hate me
You always want to take me down with you
What do you want from me?
I don't wanna be afraid I don't wanna run away
I don't want to be here fading it's more that I can take
I'm never gonna be the same
I threw it all away
I don't want to be here fading
Just let
You kept pushing me
You keep using me
You keep twisting me
You keep breaking me
You can't have me anymore [x3]
You can't have me, let go!
I don't wanna be afraid, I don't wanna run away
I don't want to be here fading it's more that I can take
I'm never gonna be the same
I threw it all away
I don't want to be here fading
Just let go! Let go! Just let go!
I don't wanna be afraid
Let go! (I don't wanna run away!)
Just let go! Let go! Let go!
Ribcage:
All hail the newborn sin
Reject the boundaries and soak the cancer in
Hope kills the filth you crave
So bleed the truth out and fall into that grave
Uphold the brand new skin
Accept the failure, refuse to rise above
Break through the ribcage
And tear the heart out from everyone that you love
(Pre-chorus:)
Over and over again
We'll bury the shame underneath the lies we breathe
Over and over again
We'll carry the blame for the hell that we can't leave
(Chorus:)
Show me - the path that leads into your mind
Release - The thoughts you lock so deep inside
Show me - I'm the one who knew this pain
Release - Before you fall into this again
Behold the loyal slave
His rotting shell now a tomb where death can play
See nopw his pride caves in
Alone he fights to stop this dark decay
Feed, feed the lust you need
And fainter grows each plea from skies above
Break through the ribcage
And tear the heart out from everyone that you love
(Pre-chorus)
(Chorus)
Building a life out of all that you hate
We see through the front that you tried to create
The world that you had hoped for was only a fake
And just like the maggots that made you this way
I know
Story about a man with a bad heart:
Watch your makeup,
there is just a smudge beneath the eye.
You look great in that dress,
it hits every curve just right.
We're got dinner at eight, and then drinks by nine.
I love you so, it's out anniversary tonight.
Suddenly everything shakes as if it's starting to break.
And now I'm on my knees,
my wife screams, "What's Wrong!?"
As the stereo plays our song,
Only In Dreams.
Just last Friday is when my heart failed again.
I was thinking that I should find a friend.
I bought her several drinks,
and slipped the ring into my hand.
We drove to her place
and let the good times roll again.
Suddenly everything shakes as my protection breaks.
And now I'm on my knees,
and I scream, "This was wrong!"
As I leave, the stereo plays the song,
The Finishing.
Is this it? Is this how I have spent my life?
Lying there with a broken heart on bedroom floors.
And finally, finally, I realize,
I realize that I'm only a man.
I'm only a man.
I'm only a man.
I'm only a man.
(One thing I have to know, where did the miracles go?
And if a simple man believes, will it start again with me?)
(If I were the maker I would fashion out a blade.
To cut out every inch of dead heart I've made.)
Iâ??m watching this screen
These lies played out before my eyes
And how they know everything
Everything comes easy
Well I never had it easy
I was never lucky
It was never easy
And you sit there
And you judge my commitment
(One thing I have to know, where did the miracles go?
And if a simple man believes, will it start again with me?)
(If I were the maker I would fashion out a blade.
To cut out every inch of dead heart I've made.)
You people could say that Iâ??m the bad guy
Because I was weak
I was weak once or twice
Well let me tell you
Iâ??m standing in the lead
I am standing in the lead
Because I canâ??t control this person behind my hands
Slow Fade:
Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade
Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day
Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
PS:
Her heart bleeds
It is a basis for your heartfelt hunger so gaze
At the page at the faces of nameless...
You're alone again
And this distortion is an apt replacement for
An unquenchable desire for more
More pages strewn across this sickening floor
I can't look at any of this
If they saw what those eyes have seen
Oh how her heart it would bleed
If she only knew those abusive roots
And how the children would weep
If they only saw what those eyes have seen
It always keeps us longer than we wanted to stay
It always takes us further than we wanted to go
But you don't seem to mind at the time
Begging to be set free...from what we were meant to be
Innocence
It's inside you and your soul is longing, yearning
Pleading to be set free
Within your eyes, within my eyes, within our eyes
There could never be a more complete perversion of what we
were meant to be
And with all that is in me I hate this
As we're sinking inside this ever-feeding illnes
We are all quite silent
Sitting still
And I'll try to quit coming up with more examples, lol, but if anyone else has some, feel free to let me know.
Let Go
Hey you, look what you do to me
You bend and you bruise me
Why you try to control me?
But you don't know me
How come you just want to hurt me?
How come you just want to push me?
I can't ignore you anymore
Cause everywhere I turn you
You burn me, you break me
You always want to take me down with you
What do you want from me?
I don't wanna be afraid, I don't wanna run away
I don't want to be here fading it's more that I can take
I'm never gonna be the same
I threw it all away
I don't want to be here fading
Just let go! (look what you do to me)
Let go! (look what you do to me)
Hey you, look what you do to me
You burnt and you scared me
With all that you tell me (but I don't listen!)
You love me, you hate me
You always want to take me down with you
What do you want from me?
I don't wanna be afraid I don't wanna run away
I don't want to be here fading it's more that I can take
I'm never gonna be the same
I threw it all away
I don't want to be here fading
Just let
You kept pushing me
You keep using me
You keep twisting me
You keep breaking me
You can't have me anymore [x3]
You can't have me, let go!
I don't wanna be afraid, I don't wanna run away
I don't want to be here fading it's more that I can take
I'm never gonna be the same
I threw it all away
I don't want to be here fading
Just let go! Let go! Just let go!
I don't wanna be afraid
Let go! (I don't wanna run away!)
Just let go! Let go! Let go!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dyEsy-m-Rvg