Gordos, in the past 6 years I too have experienced the same resistance as yourself, Rosearch, Lindajoan, and Whymom have testified to you.

You call it resistance, but I called it "discouragement, disillusionment, and being burnt out," but still I also believe along with the others that it is really the enemy trying to find a broken place into our soul so that he can torment us and eventually make us quit praying for our EC and ourselves and reading the Word.

Yet I can tell you that each time I hit the wall and could not go another moment hoping with no encouragement, listening to the deafening silence coming back to me from where my EC and GC should have been and when I cried out to God and said this is it, I am tempted above what I was able to bear with all of this, as the following verse states:

1Co 10:13 There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

Each time, God would do something miraculous that only God could have done for DH and I and I would again have renewed faith and hope that if I did not "faint" that someday I would reap the seeds of my prayers....

This past summer I had gotten down again....really down as in further than ever before, disillusioned with God and life in general to the point where I cried out and told God that I could not take it anymore and was ready to really throw in the towel this time in regard to believing in prayers much less that DH and I would ever get past the afflictions that have plagued us for 40 years! And the next thing I knew, DH got the best job he's ever had! And it really felt like finally we'd turned a corner, little breaks and favor started happening to us over the next weeks until just a week ago my DIL contacted us for the first time since 2008.

My point is this....God knows when we've reached the wall in our hearts and minds and His word promises that when we get to that point, He will provide a way of escape....and so far God has not failed to this for me yet.

Norske, my heart is rejoicing to find you here with us tonight!! I am encouraged both for you and by you! For there is no answer that makes sense in the loss of your DH, yet here you are with us....that's the grace of God...He's not left you alone, but brought you here to be an encouragement to all of us!! Death when you are a Christian is one of those bittersweet places...oh the joy of the one with his Savior tonight and so must we feel joy for him, but oh the sadness and loss of those left behind without the one loved and missed!

lostall3 - thank you for your prayers and thoughts for me. I am having a hard time because my DH and I prayed continually, we were on FB sharing our journey of faith that God would bring us through and heal DH here on earth. So many people were following my faith journey, christians and non-christians. We truly believed God would heal him here on earth, and yet, I lost the love of my life and best friend a week ago. Right now I am feeling very far away from God. I wish I could feel his arms around me as I continue to pray asking for strength. I don't know what else to do.

Norske, you and your DH's journey of faith is truly an inspiration to us here and I am sure on FB and whoever else you shared with.

We do not always understand God's ways and His timing but you and your DH had a strong bond of faith. That bond can never be broken. The Lord will return and the reunion with our loved ones will be amazing.

Until then, I know God will be close. You are covered in prayer. We love and need you. You will be a blessing to many.

Lostall3, thank you for that post. It's where I am right now and your post gave me a glimmer of hope.

lostall3, thank you for that post, I loved it! I need to remind myself that God will not give me more than I can bear.

Actually there is nowhere in the bible that says "God will not give us more than we can handle". What it does say is that God will be with us when bad things happen.

Norske Read 1 Cor. 10:13. He will help us. Your FB will be an example of how a Christian gets through your tradagies with God's help. I think the biggest lie non-Christians hear is that once you become a Christian everything is suddenly ok and nothing goes wrong. You only have blessings. Then they give up on Christ when troubles come into their life. Blog how you're feeling and watch your words as the days go by. God will give you the strength to heal and help others.
Read God On Mute. I got it from the public library. They got it from a Christian college. Go to the helps desk and ask about out of library loans.

My dear sister Norske, My prayer is that God will be carrying you as the poem Footprints says.

yes He will. Norske it is at these times that we need the Lord the most. He knows what it is to suffer loss and feel complete loneliness. I will pray for your comfort and that you feel the Lords love close to you.