God hasn't forsaken you .Jesus has a plan for your life. Although, I know it is hard to understand why HE has allowed all your pain but :
"His ways are higher than our ways." Isiaah55

My prayers are with you GOD BLESS YOU & have a blessed evening!

Razzy your post just breaks my heart. I pray that you are able become completely healed from this abuse.

I did a search on one of my favorite Christian websites and found this info. They have counselors you can speak to. I know it is hard to believe, but talking about it will be helpful for you. There are also articles for you to read. http://www.insight.org/resources/topics/sexual-abuse/

(((HUGS)))

Razzy, I will pray for you.

Dearest Razzy,
I am so sorry for the horrors in your life that you've had to endure. The pain will forever shape your soul, therefore I'm glad to hear you did find comfort in God. Continue to seek him, continue to give your pain over to him in prayer. I pray that you continue to be blessed by God's love, by his mercy and his grace. May you find strength to continue to fight for your wellbeing and continue to seek comfort. God is with you, continue to invite him in your heart and heal your wounds. In the name of Jesus Christ, may you feel the love I am sending you. The empathy I feel for your anguish, the embrace only felt in your heart is one I send you via our lord.
Continue to stay strong dearest child. Continue to feel the pain purge from your heart so it no longer has any hold on you.

In Jesus name I pray.

Amen.

Many hugs to you dearest Razzy. xo's

I'm so sorry you suffered this in your childhood. Prayers for you. Please consider counseling also. God gifted some people with the ability to help His children who have suffered abuse. God Bless you, Honey. My heart breaks for you and all you have gone through. Just know what happened to you is not Who you are. Blessings to you today.

Thank you for the love and prayers!

Misred, I did check out the Christian website. I find it helpful. Thank you!

Bobsue, I do go to counseling every other week. I have considered changing it to every week.

My prayers are with you razzy. Sorry to hear of this awful pain that you are enduring. I have had some abuse in my life and a really good Christian councellor is helping with that. I agree with Compost..A good way to heal is to face the pain and let it out.

I have suffered with ptsd and panic disorder and am recovering through the help of God He is leading me to the right people. I will pray that the Lord heals your heart my friend. We all need that.

Hi razzy, my heart goes out to you! Sending prayers that you know and believe our Father's grace, mercy, peace and strength are with you. It's normal to have times of challenge when you have to do some more work to get everything back in perspective, remember what the triggers are, or learn what new ones may be there, and continue on the path of healing. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, (((hugs))) to you.

Razxzy, I thought of you this morning when someone called into the radio station I listened to this morning. He said he had been struggling with impure thoughts that just seemed to come from nowhere and had been praying to overcome them. While he was praying, a song came on the radio and the lyrics said, "when you don't know what to pray, just say Jesus." He started saying Jesus over and over and the thoughts went away. One of the hosts said he was reminded of the scripture where it says "take your thoughts captive." He said maybe it means that we have thoughts that are not ours...that don't come from us. One of the other hosts agreed and said when she has fearful thoughts, like when she is home alone and scared, she walks around the house shouting out the name of Jesus and feels better. I have done that myself and it works. He has promised when we call upon Him, He will be there.

Here is a link to the song if you are interested. You may already know it, it's by 7th Time Down~ Just Say Jesus http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=84LSLk3hfD4

Misred, I completely agree with what you mentioned about thoughts coming into ones mind that are not ours tempting us to sin and bring us down. I am reminded of a true story I read about a gentleman who had found Jesus and one day he had woken up with impure thoughts (pictures of naked women were flashing in his mind)and found it really odd as this is not something that had been on his mind, therefore he too asked Jesus to help him rid of these thoughts and they did instantly.
I have seen it many times, and believe it's just one of the things our souls must go through when we accept Jesus as our savior, Satan will continue to try, at least once more to tempt you or bring you down. Having Jesus in our hearts doesn't make us immune to it, but it does give us strength and endurance to conquer it.

I personally have been tempted many times, and I too ask Satan to leave in Jesus Christ's name as he is not welcome. I remind him that I am a servant of God, My heart and soul only belong and respond to God's love and I know the truth in him. I am always so comforted to feel God's love replaced by those awful feelings or thoughts and feel at peace once again.

Razzy, first know that I will pray with you and all those who had become aware of the situation.

Soooo much to say. But first we must "be still" and know that He is God!!!!! Being still in this case means to slow down or to stop. To stop fighting because God's got it under control.

I cannot say I have experienced this. I cannot say I understand what you are going through. Was not abused in any way when I was growing up. Had some problems since.

I do know that God is bigger than any problem you might have. Bigger than any monster that might linger because of what you have experienced. Big enough to be able to take care of the whole universe. He did create it. He had nothing to do with what has happened since. You see, there is the rub. God gave us all the freedom of choice. I know it's not something that has crossed your mind, but here it is. God gave you the choice to linger on a memory or thought or situation or just to give it to Him. This sounds a little harsh, and I'm sorry. From what I know of ptsd this is what happens. But all you need do is say,
"my God is bigger than you." Sorta like the old thing about, my daddy can beat up your daddy. Well, guess what........this time it's true!!!!!! My Father can beat you ANYTIME.

The biggest thing is that God is waiting for you to turn around, see Him there, and waiting for you to say, "Sic "em, God!!!!!"

A little humor, I know. But you thought about it a little differently, didn't you? I'm glad.

Msred was right. That song "Just say Jesus" really works. When things try to trip me up, Jesus comes into my mind. Then I just can't get that song out of my mind.

Another one you need to listen to is "Overcomer" by Mandisa. Look it up on youtube. It will bless you, You are an overcomer, too.

Just found this scripture. I think it was meant for you:

Luke 10:19
Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you.

I hope you feel better .