My niece had a beautiful baby girl...Erin Louise...on monday evening. It took all my strength to go and visit her today, and that makes me feel really bad. Its a long time now since my unsuccessful IVF treatments and Erins birth is as a result of successful IVF treatment which seems to make things more difficult. I wonder how I would be feeling tho if she had been conceived naturally or if the pain would be just as bad? A baby is a baby. Buying a congratulations card brought me to tears and I had to make several trips to baby stores before I could finally buy a gift.
I am so envious of my sister. She has 2 daughters, a grandson and now a new granddaughter and I hate myself for feeling this way as I love them all so much and want to be part of the joy. They live near to me so I will be seeing them quite frequently and I wouldn't want it any other way but it is soooo hard!