It's been 5 months to the day and today he cut me off financially.  He left me enough to pay bills for the month.  We're still legally married, I'm still living in our home and my little paychecks were going in the joint account.  I was trying to show him I've been serious, that I'm not taking him for granted or blowing money.  I don't make very much.  I work full time but my wages are low.  My husband makes very good money, so him cutting me off is going to really hurt me and I know that's the intention.  I didn't want it to get ugly. I've been nothing but civil, I've been trying to talk with him and work things out, but he's chosen to ignore and avoid me, he hasn't even confronted me or really done much of anything in terms of communication about my affair.  He just took of to his parent's and that's where he's been with his life going on while I'm here sick over this.  I had to go to urgent care yesterday because I had a panic attack at work.  I can barely function. He knows how to hurt me and it feels like that's what his plan is now.  I never wanted this.  I was naive thinking this wouldn't be the outcome of my affair.  I feel like I have no control because I have no money, I have nothing to fall back on, while he has a good paycheck, good credit, and a support system.  The punishment for my transgressions doesn't seem to end.  I'm not trying to sound like a victim.  I'm just scared shitless because I'm going to end up with nothing.  My once loving husband has turned into my enemy because his once faithful wife strayed.  It all could've been prevented and this is what it's become.