My psychiatrist put me on a medication called Clozaril. The side effects, especially dizziness, are becoming unbearable to me. The medication is supposed to keep me from having another manic episode like the one I had in April, but the cure is almost as bad as the disease. The hardest part is not being able to read my beloved, well-worn Bible (the words seem to swim together on the page the longer I look at them), so I read the Bible online (I do OK on the computer). I love walking because I seem to pray better when I walk, but today I almost fell down from the dizziness. I'm afraid to tell my caregiver about this. She told me that after the incident in April she thought I'd wind up in the state hospital. She's had me hospitalized several times before. It's like a sword hanging over my head. I have to wait til Monday now to call the doc.Please pray with me that the side effects go away by then. The strange part is that when I'm in my room at home I feel fine. But I feel so strange.