Champions Of Christ Church Community Group
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I will try and be brief….as possible….
I have battled depression ALL of my life!!!! (now 51…) Been on EVERY anti depressant under the sun…(I have Chronic Depression) been to 21 different mental health…”so-called professionals”…who did nothing but charge me mega $$$$$$ and use their stupid CBT techniques…(CBT is insane! It takes AWAY from your issues instead of helping them! Their theory is: “Well…you are burning up=literally---no help available…but it is drizzling rain—so focus on that…) I have been Inpatient twice---due to two suicide attempts…
I hate life and I hate myself! Always have on both counts!
One main issue is: I tried for ages to build a nice body—I worked out…ate right---had a trainer….even did steroids (which messed me up more) and NEVER could “get there”!!! Google of Greg Valentino or Ronnie Coleman….this is “the look” I so wanted….but could not get!
Since a child…I have ALWAYS wanted to look like someone else…ANYONE else but ME! I always see other guys who have “the look” and I have crap! I am ashamed to take my clothes off and shower….and even more ashamed to be seen in public with clothes on!!!! It is a disgrace and an embarrassment to have been born like this! My face is also riddled with acne scars….
You know…all other guys…. …have muscles…thick hair-----they party thru college (I worked my way thru) and when they get out..Boom! They get opportunities slung at them! The crap that comes so easily for others never even happened for me…in spite of all my wasted effort, time, and energy!!!
Every female I have been in a relationship with…I felt inadequate/insecure/unworthy…and when we would go out and I would see a guy who has “the look” I could sense she wanted him……Face is acne scar ridden----But I know my lot in life is to make others feel good about who they are
Please I do not want to hear personality matters---tried that----I have learned to accept being alone---just cannot accept why life gave me such a raw deal……..
Please no bs about "well I have other gifts" NO I do not!
Besides--I have had to suffer thru with this body---why could I not ever make it acceptable? Why do other guys attain what I NEVER could!!!!!! Heck I do not/never did want a million bucks or to be rich and famous---just self esteem filled-----but as I said, no such luck.......
My only thing that keeps me going--is I am 51 now---so my "sentence" here on Earth is at least 80% over---hopefully more!!! It will be completely over when I've reached my limit (fyi see my last journal post----)
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I am waiting for info on the next seasons for: Untamed, The Burbs and Happys Place.
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What’s the biggest challenge in your life right now?
14 I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
15 My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.
Ok, silly man, gonna tell you this again...first, God gave you a gift when you were born.
What you did with that gift after He gave it to you...YOUR CHOICE.
Be yourself...everyone else is taken.
God did not make you Greg Valentino or Ronnie Coleman. Quit trying so hard to be them.
And, something else...why do you put your thoughts and emotions in everybody else (especially women).
Its really you who are unsatisfied with yourself...not the females you date.
You project your attitude outward to those around you. STOP IT!!!!
You are what God created...and, He don't make junk.
I sound harsh...some say even rude
But, I say all this because I have a thing for you, my brother. I've been a friend for SOME time now. I'm doing a "slap up side the head" thing.
Love you, brother.
Love yourself!!!!
But, don't forget:
Lay it on Him...he has BIG shoulders. He can handle it. .
I'm not surprised that you're getting the response you are from others, given your negative attitude. Whatever you project is likely to come back to you. If I were single, I can assure you that I wouldn't care one bit about acne scars or appearances...but I wouldn't spend five minutes with someone who had your amount of anger and self-hatred. The old saying is true: you have to like yourself before someone else can like you.
You have two choices in life...you either make the most of what you're given (and God gives us A LOT to work with, if we choose to) or you continue to judge yourself and everything else as negative and horrible. If you choose the latter, you are electing to remain miserable. God hasn't done anything to you. This is what YOU are doing to yourself.
Hugs and prayers.
But---my order was too tall!
Again I never wanted fame, fortune, a mansion, an expensive car, I am not into material things----I just wanted self esteem------which has nor will never happen.............
Ladybug also has excellent points .
I was going to respond but they covered it all.
You should thank God that you have your limbs and do not have cerebral palsy .
Matthew 9:29 Living Bible (TLB)
29 Then he touched their eyes and said, “Because of your faith it will happen.”
Their faith was paramount not their ego.
My prayers are with you .
I'm going to try a different approach here, and I do agree with smil, that the ladies are right on point with this issue. I do hope that this link below will help our friend as well.
https://www.dailystrength.org/group/anger-management
Okay, in the matter of miracles, and to have a gift of a well-built body is a blessing, and only God reserves the right to decide who inherits a perfect knowledge of how to gain a miracle.
NeedAdvice2013: Weeping, and wailing, and gnashing of teeth, complaining, all because you have not what you desire is a risk of not getting through to God for adequate help. God truly loves you; and God desires for you to be happy and filled with His kind, loving, peace. Be blessed that you do have a functional body. Many do not have an advantage to a healthy body, nonetheless the desire for a weightlifter's body. I use weights myself, and I am never going to have a body like other women weight trainers who work diligently everyday single day. I only do a few hours in a week of weights, which makes me happy just to see tone in my body, and I don't find fault with not seeing muscles growing out of muscles; like the He-Man action figures sold in toy stores. And it really is a matter of imagination that's sometimes blown way out on a limb to hope for such tall orders; it takes faith and great works to have a finished, perfected body image. A tall order to ask this of God, in my personal opinion. Yet what happens to you is completely by God's planned designs. We each may desire to pray for this type of body for you to receive, as it is what you really desire; yet it is by God's own merciful will & His extreme anointing power is by that you ask for, and how you get the answer to your faithful prayers is not within a believer's control We can only pray for you. The matter is then left in the Holy Hands of the Master of faith.
Our Bible prophets teach that the gifts of God come from Christ, by the power of the Holy Ghost and by the Spirit of Christ. The purpose is (of gifts) to enlighten, encourage, and edify the faithful so that they will inherit peace in this life and be guided toward eternal life in the world to come. A miracle is proof of the divinity of the Lord's word; where miracles are not found, God is not there. And as anger and frustration is a part of our weak, faithless disappointment, the Spirit of God cannot dwell in faithless places. There is no belief in God if one is constantly at fault with God or showing expressions of disbelief or lack of faith. Our Bible study tells that: "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Take therefore no thought for the 'morrow..." (Matthew 6:33-34)
God's love to all!
We are the temple of God therefore , I think it is GREAT that you do your best to keep it healthy
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Kudos to you and Needadvice2013 we love you and I am 100% sure GOD loves you exactly as YOU are .Really .
His love for you is everlasting and eternal .
You are wonderfully made and all will work out .
"God works all things together for good to those who love HIM."