About 6-ish year ago I had an abnormal pap. They didn't biopsy at the time, they did another pap. It was normal. Then about 4 years ago while getting a pap the Doc could visibly see abnormalties and took a sample for biopsy, it came back normal. Since then my own health has taken a back seat so I could put all of my focus into my son's Tourette's and ADHD and my daughter's anxiety and my youngest developemental delays. About a year ago when I started going back to the doc I was focused mainly on my heart palpitations, fatigue, memory loss, poor concentration, and a whole array of other complaints, all of which started about 2 years ago. Then a couple months ago intercourse started becoming painful. (hitting my cervix causing pain seemed normal. the vaginal walls felt raw). So I went in for a pap last week. She took one look and said I had a tumor. She didn't even do the the full exam. She referred me to a Gyno, who I see on the 2nd. She said things like "I hate to be the bearer of bad news" and "Hopefully we caught it in time." And she patted me on my back and looked very sympathetic. So naturally that freaked me out.

As I'm waiting for my appt I'm sitting here thinking about my symptoms....

For quite some time now it has hurt for a penis to hurt my cervix, still don't know if that's normal or not, all the other symptoms started about 2 years ago, including...

My period became irregular, I developed sebaceous cysts in my vulva, I also have intermittent pain in my lower back and pelvic areas, I thought it was constipation. Which I get frequently with the IBS I recently started having. Fatigue, short term memory loss, poor concentration, irritability,

My doc had mentioned the possibility Fybromialgia. All my tests came back normal.

I'm pretty convinced I have cancer based on my Doc's reaction to what she saw. Then based on the time frame and various symptoms I feel like I'm going to die.

I can't find anything anywhere about physical symptoms related to the different stages. The not knowing is the worst!