Hi, charris. I'm sorry to hear how difficult this has been.

We always tend to blame ourselves but please, there's no need to. We each do the best we can, and there are plenty of women who have been very regular with doctor visits and are diagnosed with cancer anyway. What's important now is that you are getting the care you need.

By now you've had your first treatment and I hope you found it doable. Make sure you let your treatment nurses know if you are having any problems or discomfort; they are a great source of ideas and help if you are having nausea or other problems. Are you doing external radiation, and if so, how many rounds?

Sending you lots of gentle ((hugs)) and supportive thoughts.

I have had my first week of radiation and chemo chemo is only one day a week radiation is 5 days a week by the time I am done I will have had about 34 rounds of radiation then I have to do radiation internally I was ok with chemo until the day after I have had no energy or appetite I can't even smell food can't wait to see what my second one does lol I'm trying to be strong I really am I'm normally so active and now I can't walk up my stairs without being out of breath and I am having a lot of body aches not sure what that is from

Charris:

I just fund this site and saw your post last night so I hope you are still active on this site. I was diagnosed with Stage 1B2 just before the new year, had a radical hysterectomy and now have to undergo radiation and chemo in another 2 weeks-- 28 days of radiation with chemo on Mondays, (I am healing 4 weeks out of my surgery now).

I am wondering if you work or try to work even though you have treatments?

I am pulling for you!

Runngl8.

I have been through three rounds of chemo so far I have a couple more weeks of that with radiation I have radiation 5 days a weeks and chemo one day a week since my last post I have found out I also have to do internal radiation and still may have to do stronger chemo after all this which will result in losing my hair that was so hard to hear when I wasn't told that in the beginning as far as work my dr because of my treatments as taken me out of work unfortunately the chemo and radiation together has made me really sick so I'm glad to have the time for me because I never have that hence why I didn't know about my cancer thank u For your support and I am routing for u as well it's. It easy

Is your chemo med cisplatin? That is mine. My doctors told me I would not lose any hair because of the low dose. I am wondering if that has held true for you so far.

I see that your follow up chemo is to result in hair loss, but honestly compared to life that's nothing to fret about! Stay strong and optimistic.

When you go for treatment try to visualize sharks eating your cancer cells away. Use any type of visualization. I know that sounds a bit crazy but I believe in the power of the mind.

Charris: Another question: do you have the port my your shoulder or did you get the pick on your arm for chemo? If the port-- did it hurt to be placed? Did you have a choice?

The chemo now is the same u will be doing I shed a little more than usual but nothing bad at all as far as the port mine is placed under my collar bone in my chest I'm not going to lie the second day after was really rough it will hurt for a bit but it does get better makes things a lot easier I was not given a choice but u can ask your dr thank u again for your kind words if u have any questions let me know

Mine spread to my lymph nodes ...I feel the same way. But these treatments make me depressed and sometimes I have really sad thoughts. Just feel so alone and scared.