This weekend has proven to be the toughest yet. I am on the verge of completely letting go and trying to find the strength to move on from my boyfriend. His PTSD is proving difficult for me to handle and his hesitating to get help doesn't make it any easier. No matter how many times I bring it up, he always has an excuse. I explained that if he really wants this realtionship to work out, he must find a way, just as I will and have been doing. I feel that I have given him so much, with pretty much nothing in return. Yesterday I caught him doing something behind my back. I know if it would have been the other way around, it wouldn't have been so easy to get us back. When I confronted him about the issue, he blew up and said hurtful things, as he always does. I gave him some time and after about an hour he tried to explain himself and asked what he can do or say to make the situation better. I told him he needs to get help because I am getting tired. I told him that I cannot continue to fight this alone and he either needs to start fighting with me or we need to move on from each other. He says he will do better, but my faith has started to diminish. I am going to see how this next week goes, I am praying it goes well. Otherwise, It will be time to move on.