Sounds like you are suffering from caregiver burn out. What do you do for yourself? It took me awhile to read the signs of burnout - I burntout a few times before I started to notice the signs; the change in sleep pattern; the anger towards Larry (as I am starting to feel again). Do you get help? Do you get some respite? Do you enjoy reading? Hiding in a book for a day can be very theraputic. Sounds like a whole day of you doing for yourself is in order, whatever that means to you.

Personally I think I am going to take a nap. I have noticed my own sleep pattern is a little disturbed and I am feeling angry towards Larry. I know I need the break. I have meals frozen in the freezer.

Take care of yourself. It is hard and sometimes feels "mean" but if you don't take care of you, you can't take care of your wife. I'm sure you have hear flight attendants tell parents to put their oxygen on FIRST before caring for their kids, or they both parish. You are in the same boat. Care for yourself well and you can care for your wife. If you don't take care of you, what happens to her??

If you're too tired to run, go for a walk. Grab onto that little part of yourself that enjoyed something and don't let it slip away.

Sounds like you need some respite. If that isn't available what I used to do was to wait until my friends was retired for the night and I'd sit up and do things I wanted for 2 hours. If you are even finding phone calls are a burden I am wondering if you may be getting some depression? Have you been to the doctor? A note from the doctor goes a long way to getting some help to come in. even one or two hours a week is something to look forward to just for you.