hi, 

i am a new member and was diagnosed with triple positive invasive ductal carcinoma stage 1 in January 2017 at the age of 34 on my left breast. I chose to do a bilateral mastectomy with immediate Reconstruction in February. 

In march I started chemo TCH every 3 weeks for 6 treatments and am now currently doing just herceptin. Chemo definitely had its ups and downs with side effects. So far with herceptin alone I've just notice very bad joint pain in my knuckles and some stiffness in my hips and knees and some mild back pain (only in spine areas not sure if anyone has experienced this but so far my oncologist has kinda brushed it off as not exercising for the back pain and arthritis for my knuckles but never had an issue before treatment. 

I am about to start tamoxifen in a few weeks once I change my anxiety and depression meds since they interfere. Any info on those taking tamoxifen would be greatly appreciated. 

I think I have done very well adapting to all the life changes and still working and having young kids etc but the last few weeks I have just been down. Upset about the way I look (scars and weight) I get sick of people telling me everything will be fine! Even know I'm surviving treatment our lives (breast cancer survivor s) are far from fine. I know that's there way of being nice but it makes me so angry and I don't know how to adjust to that.  Also just feeling kinda alone....my husband has been great but sometimes I just feel Like he doesn't acknowledge what I'm saying or feeling. 

Thanks for listening and letting me vent any help or advice would be appreciated